self hatred
Earth Child
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Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: Edinburgh, Scotland
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self hatred
i have so much hatred of myself and dough in faith and in myself
i dont feel like am worth anything i cant face being sober without worth for myself want to drink , use and cut but my husband will not let me because some reason he loves me i see nothing of love in me
self esteem is crap at the moment i hate myself more and more each day i dont even know the true reason why i hate myself so much i just do i have always hated myself from a young age am not a child anymore i need to grow up but its feels like life is overwhelming right now and i cant face myself the child in me is still hurting but as an adult am choosing to hurt myself sometimes i wish people would let me do it
i dont feel like am worth anything i cant face being sober without worth for myself want to drink , use and cut but my husband will not let me because some reason he loves me i see nothing of love in me
self esteem is crap at the moment i hate myself more and more each day i dont even know the true reason why i hate myself so much i just do i have always hated myself from a young age am not a child anymore i need to grow up but its feels like life is overwhelming right now and i cant face myself the child in me is still hurting but as an adult am choosing to hurt myself sometimes i wish people would let me do it
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GMS, I know that, on some level, you care about yourself. You come here and you post and you seek support. You try to get better and you do many things to help yourself. You never give up.
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Join Date: Oct 2013
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You can learn to love yourself bit by bit--I used to feel much the same as you
and it has gotten much better though hard work and attention.
You are a kind and loving person who deserves kindness and healing.
I totally get why your husband loves you
and it has gotten much better though hard work and attention.
You are a kind and loving person who deserves kindness and healing.
I totally get why your husband loves you
No Dogma Please
Join Date: Jul 2017
Location: SoCal
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It's tough to deal with self loathing without help from somebody. Like a therapist. You can begin to figure out the why, and more importantly how to change the way you feel.
Sorry you're in such a bad place. You are not alone.
Sorry you're in such a bad place. You are not alone.
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