boyml27

I am at day 103 which is HUGE for me. My husband asks me occasionally if I think I’ve beat it for good and I just say I hope so. There are a lot of afternoons when I get that feeling of relief because I know it’s almost time to have that first drink, then realization hits that I don’t drink anymore. I feel panic for a minute, then relief because I can make a choice FINALLY. I can remember twenty years ago sobbing, begging God to help me and I couldn’t turn away from the bottle. I thank God I can now, but I’m scared every time it washes over me, that feeling in the afternoon.... Does it ever go away? I don’t post much, but I read daily, and I thank everyone who has told their story. It helps more than you all know.

Anna

It sounds like you're doing great!

Congratulations on 103 days of sobriety!

I expect that you will have those feelings less and less as time goes by. Do you have a recovery program that helps you through each day?

boyml27

I don’t go to AA or anything similar. I read here, a lot of blogs and books. Otherwise, I just try to change my focus. Do you have a structured recovery program?

least

You will think of alcohol less and less as time goes by. It will become the new normal to be sober and it won't feel 'different'.

Congrats on over three months sober!

Dee74

Hi boyml27

things got a lot better for me and easier after day 90 - I hope they will for you too...

I really used the heck out of this place tho - the support here is amazing and it really helped me not focus on those thoughts, but focus instead on what I wanted my sober life and the sober me, to be like

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