Day 3
 

Today is technically my third day being sober. It's not hard for me to string together a week or even a couple of weeks. For some reason, it's around the third week or so that I have trouble: it's like I forget how bad it can be, I feel too stressed, or I just feel like I deserve more. Hoping to be sober today, and change this cycle. I intend to be accountable in this forum this time.

Anyone else have lots of false starts?

I had loads of false starts, but then one day it stuck - just over a year ago now :) Hang in there.

I've had more false starts than I can count (only on day 27 this time, but I feel like something has definitely clicked and shifted in the right direction). One of the reasons I relapsed was because I romanticized drinking and viewed NOT drinking as deprivation. Now, I never allow myself to think about drinking without conjuring up my absolute worst memories of it. I can't continue to associate drinking with relief, relaxation, and fun when ultimately it brought me sickness, anxiety, depression, and hopelessness, you know?

Congrats on 3 days. Come join us in the January class! :)

That's exactly what I need to do! Thanks for articulating it so well!

I did,even had one last for months after a yer and a half sober.
But, this July will be 5 years.
You really have to be determined to quit and work hard for it.
You can do it!!

Thanks, resolute

Literally hundreds. I couldn't go more than 28 days on any one attempt.

This time I am using SR daily and I am about to finish Day 43

These words serve as a warning to me. My first time (and only) quitting. I haven't had it as bad as others from what I can see. Nearly two weeks now. Need to never forget the reasons why we stopped in first place. Apathy can creep in. Keep It up Prof
Best wishes R

Great job on getting through Day 3!

Maybe you can come up with some healthy ways to deal with stress and anxiety that comes along. You can do this!

Congrats on your Day 3 Professor.

Yes, quite a few false starts before I crashed & burned so badly I could no longer pretend I had any control. Once I had 3 yrs. & still managed to tell myself I could still have 'a couple' if I used enough willpower. I often wish I'd kept a journal & recorded all the misery, confusion, dangerous things I did while under the influence. My selective memory told me it was fun, relaxing, rewarding, etc. - as PalmerSage mentioned.