I’m having a hard time tonight but that’s good
 

I haven’t had this intense of a craving or a wising I could have a drink yet. I’m kind of glad I am, I’ve been waiting for it, dreading it, but I’ve tried to build up an Arsenal of suggestions from this site, my own hobbies, and some sweet treats. I feel nervous about it to the point I can feel my heart thumping, but I can go to bed in a few hours. If I can get better and better at this “no” thing this will be helpful. I just need to take it moment by moment.

You’ve almost made it through the day, that’s fantastic! I can tell you that it definitely gets easier and eventually you won’t even be thinking about it. You sound positive and determined, that’s exactly the attitude that you need. Keep up the good work!

Ready,

I craved about 2 pm. I hit the gym, then ate a protein bar.

Getting ready for dinner and bed.

Last night me and my son went for pizza.

I talked with him about how I used to be. I said what do you think I would have been doing 3 years ago?

He said...in your room.....getting drunk?

I said...exactly right....never again. Booze almost ruined my life.

Hopefully, he learned what not to do from me.

Thanks.

Did you manage getting through the hard time getting through the night?
You've must be acutely aware of the AV. He's laughing at me as we speak...I had 19 Days yesterday thought I had AV dead and buried.

When he comes calling again. I'm gonna tell him "sure you beat down at day 19 . Go ahead try again, pray I don't get up bastard"