Day 3
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Day 3
Today is technically my third day being sober. It's not hard for me to string together a week or even a couple of weeks. For some reason, it's around the third week or so that I have trouble: it's like I forget how bad it can be, I feel too stressed, or I just feel like I deserve more. Hoping to be sober today, and change this cycle. I intend to be accountable in this forum this time.
Anyone else have lots of false starts?
Anyone else have lots of false starts?
I've had more false starts than I can count (only on day 27 this time, but I feel like something has definitely clicked and shifted in the right direction). One of the reasons I relapsed was because I romanticized drinking and viewed NOT drinking as deprivation. Now, I never allow myself to think about drinking without conjuring up my absolute worst memories of it. I can't continue to associate drinking with relief, relaxation, and fun when ultimately it brought me sickness, anxiety, depression, and hopelessness, you know?
Congrats on 3 days. Come join us in the January class!
Congrats on 3 days. Come join us in the January class!
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That's exactly what I need to do! Thanks for articulating it so well!
Today is technically my third day being sober. It's not hard for me to string together a week or even a couple of weeks. For some reason, it's around the third week or so that I have trouble: it's like I forget how bad it can be, I feel too stressed, or I just feel like I deserve more. Hoping to be sober today, and change this cycle. I intend to be accountable in this forum this time.
Anyone else have lots of false starts?
Anyone else have lots of false starts?
Best wishes R
Congrats on your Day 3 Professor.
Yes, quite a few false starts before I crashed & burned so badly I could no longer pretend I had any control. Once I had 3 yrs. & still managed to tell myself I could still have 'a couple' if I used enough willpower. I often wish I'd kept a journal & recorded all the misery, confusion, dangerous things I did while under the influence. My selective memory told me it was fun, relaxing, rewarding, etc. - as PalmerSage mentioned.
Yes, quite a few false starts before I crashed & burned so badly I could no longer pretend I had any control. Once I had 3 yrs. & still managed to tell myself I could still have 'a couple' if I used enough willpower. I often wish I'd kept a journal & recorded all the misery, confusion, dangerous things I did while under the influence. My selective memory told me it was fun, relaxing, rewarding, etc. - as PalmerSage mentioned.
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