Day 10 and struggling
 

Hi. I read posts all the time but don't post much myself; apart from the 24 commitment every morning.
I am having a bad day. I can sobered up many times in the past but sadly always relapsed after months, or sometimes years. I usually feel great by day 10, on top of the world, but this time I have given up so much to be sober.
I have had to leave my marriage, only thing we had in common was drinking. He was a wealthy successful business man and we travelled a lot with his work. As well as lots of holidays. He is going away today and texted me from the airport. Its freezing here and I don't know what the future holds, my AV is giving me grief, I could be with him, first class travel, all the booze I want, 5 star hotels, all the booze I want. Even now all I have to do is phone him and say I want to go somewhere - anywhere, and we would go.
But I was so unhappy. He was controlling and wanted me to drink. I went to collect the dog two days ago, first thing he did was say he had a case of wine for me. I didn't succumb.
I know but it must be hard for people who have money as well as drink problems. But for me the only way to stay wealthy was to stay drunk. Its hard to walk away from it all. And I have no idea where I go from here.
Sorry to go on, just feeling down and blue.

Hang in there and keep going.. I hear it gets a whole lot better!

Hi. Just wanted to reply to my own thread.

What a difference a few hours makes. I took the dog out for a walk. Had a small meal then supermarket delivery arrived with all my goodies; diet coke and chocolate milkshake. Then I had a nice bath and lit the fire. I feel so much better. Have shaken the blues off. For the time being.

All the advice given here works. Just ride out the bad feelings and cravings, they will pass.

Thank you.

Good stuff!

No matter how bad I've felt about anything in sobriety, I have never, ever regretted not giving in to a craving.

There are things far more priceless than financial wealth in this world.

You have taken some very, very brave steps, Juliet. Well done!

I know that you can continue to take those steps. Your beautiful sobriety is worth every single one of those steps.

Have you formulated a Plan? I will post a link to a great SR thread in a minute.

As promised:

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...highlight=Psst

Hi SoberLeigh. I am doing okay, thanks. Got over the blues and feel better now. I plan to go to AA but I am only on day 10 and didn't really leave the house for the first week. I am getting stronger and braver every day.
I find this site helps enormously. I remember saying at an AA meeting that an hour wasn't enough, I needed a meeting from when I got up to when I go to bed. This site provides this.
But yes I am ready to commit to AA and work the steps.
Thanks for your support.

:c011:, juliet

Hi Juliet

Glad you got through it. It must be tough to give all that up in a way, but giving up the drink sometimes means tough choices. Sounds like you were unhappy though so giving it all up is a good thing....if I'm making any sense at all!! :lmao

Getting out is hard as we know, but worth it if we can manage it. X

well done for hanging in there & sticking to your guns. as you've proved to yourself, it does pass, & it does get better :)

Thank you for sharing. Man I gotta say, that life you gave up seems pretty awesome on the surface. Just goes to show alcohol shows no bias or partiality. Good luck going forward.

Thanks to all of you. I was so down when I posted this lunchtime. I can't believe the difference in a few hours. I know the blues and the cravings will come back, but I can fight them. With all this help I can.
Thanks again everyone. :thanks

Hi Juliet.
Well done on turning your day around
Best wishes

Really glad to hear the blues has lifted. Someone very helpfully said to me on SR, you don't need to work everything out yet. All you have to do is stay sober for a while. Its natural, I think, to second guess your decisions early in recovery. I have been told that things become clearer the longer you are sober.
Best wishes.

Really glad you're feeling a little better Juliet :)

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yup fighting those awful urges tends to chase them away before to long, a lot faster than the whole situation of having a few drinks and then dealing with all that again would be. It's tough at first and you'll have a lot of tough moments that can seem to drive you insane, keeping my head down and waiting them out always worked. Once I learned to just accept that I'm having a craving instead of fighting it they actually started to go away faster.

Really pleased you're feeling more positive. The urges can take you by surprise but as you showed them today - you are stronger