I got so depressed
 

I got so depressed yesterday. I felt like I couldn't go on. Mental health sent out an ambulance to do a welfare check. By then I had drunk 2 bottles of wine and taken too much of my bipolar medication. They took me to hospital, monitored me and let me sleep it off. They put all my behaviour down to drinking which I think is unfair. Mental health didn't even assess me. Maybe I am in remission as they said a few years ago. I hate been written off as a drunk. I have suffered with depression for years but never this bad. I drank to try to feel better. Public health sucks. It could be my age thinking I should know better. The ambulance took 7hours to arrive. Thanks for listening to my rant.

I am so,sorry that you are gating such a difficult time.

Is there a way that you can arrange for counseling or therapy?

Thanks Sober. I have decided to go back to counseling for alcohol. My psychiatrist is seeing me once a week now which is helping. Maybe I should book in for a psychologist but you only get ten free sessions. That might be enough though.

Alcohol counselling sounds very good, sweetichick.

Ten free sessions with a psychologist sounds like a good start.

Stay close.

We care.

Thanks Sober. After leaving the hospital I felt like noone cared

It's really a vicious cycle. You get depressed so you drink to feel better which leads to even worse depression. Maybe once you get the help from a counselor to deal with the drinking, mental health will look into what is causing your depression and help you with that. Good luck. John

That must have been a very lonely feeling.

Please stay close!

I think it's very hard for ambulance crews and emergency room staff to diagnose mental health issues, so I'd probably cut them a little slack.

I noticed you weren't posting here very much - were you doing anything else to stay sober?

I'm not asking in a critical way. I just know I really needed to stay connected to my support network in the early days.

D

I'm glad to hear you are seeing a psychiatrist once a week and get 10 free sessions of counseling. That is better than a lot folks get. Hang in there. Depression sucks. Your Dr. may need to tweak your meds.

My personal experience is that bipolar depression is in many ways the worst. If you've had a manic phase, the crash is horrible.

Glad you're seeing a psychiatrist, bipolar disorder needs one. And of course you know that alcohol interferes with the effectiveness of mood stabilizers, right?

The ten counseling sessions could be brilliant.

Keep in touch and try and keep the perspective that, like all depression, this will lift. It feels like now is forever, but its not.

My experience is that drinking does make my depression and anxiety worse.

If you'd drunk 2 bottles of wine when the ambulance came out then they will just put you down as a drink related problem. Think of the life threatening situations they are faced with. At least you were taken to hospital and monitored.

Of course getting help for mental health issues is necessary, I have it myself, But nothing will get better if you keep drinking.

Getting sober time was the single best thing I did to treat my anxiety and depression.

Anxiety essentially went away entirely, and depression "attacks" were greatly reduced
and much milder.

Sorry you are hurting so SC, and from my own experience,
I really encourage you to focus on building up sober days ASAP
because alcoholism may really be contributing to your other issues
more than you realize.
I sure didn't realize it.

Wishing you the best--we do care about you a lot :grouphug:

I'm sorry that things are going badly, SW. Mental health issues are not easy to diagnose and treat. I hope that you persist with trying to get treatment.

How are you today, sweetichick?

Like Dee said, maybe staying more connected with SR might help you a lot. Have a good day. John

Hey Sweetichick,

I think you need to deal with the alcohol issue. As someone said earlier, alcohol helps you feel better now but leads to worse depression. And if you need to go to medical, then they can't write it off as drunkenness. I just pray that you get some continuous sobriety and your mental health can get a fair diagnosis. Good luck sweetichick.

Hi Sober. I am feeling a little better. My mood had gone up this morning. No real cravings. I think seeing all the old people in emergency who had real problems was a bit of a wake up call. I agree with everyone that the alcohol is making my depression worse. Feeling hungover and sick all the time is no recipe for happiness.

stay cool today sweetichick.

D

what is the recipe for happiness?what are you going to do to get it?

Sorry you are hurting Sweetichick. I'm glad you reached out or help.