This is hard..
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Join Date: Jan 2018
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This is hard..
I don't even know where to begin. I went to visit family and I went on a bender. My SO wasn't there so maybe that's why I thought it was okay. For over a week straight I went HARD. Every day all day. Before that I drank just not that hard.
I know I have a problem. I have the worst anxiety right now.. pacing around.. with this cough that won't go away..scratchy throat.. sweating.. sure my blood pressure is high..
Little backstory.. I had a liver biopsy done when I was 28 because my enzymes were around 500. Normal was anywhere from 70-120 or so.. that was from a previous bender.. diagnosed with fatty liver disease. Too young for this..
I am 30 now.. with no regard for my health it's pathetic..I have a 4 year old son who is at that stage.. I wanna see him grow up.. i think this bender is it for me... I need to stop.. I wanna stop.. it's so ******* hard. I'm going to have my wife drive me to a meeting when I start feeling better..I'm only hour 26 or so from my last drink.. I feel terrible...there's no way I can have another drink.. I'm not like everyone else.. I can't handle it. I can't drink responsible like other people I know... No one gets it :/..
I had to tell someone.. my wife doesn't understand the power alcohol has on people as she doesn't drink. She just thinks I don't listen to her when she tells me not to drink..
I know I have a problem. I have the worst anxiety right now.. pacing around.. with this cough that won't go away..scratchy throat.. sweating.. sure my blood pressure is high..
Little backstory.. I had a liver biopsy done when I was 28 because my enzymes were around 500. Normal was anywhere from 70-120 or so.. that was from a previous bender.. diagnosed with fatty liver disease. Too young for this..
I am 30 now.. with no regard for my health it's pathetic..I have a 4 year old son who is at that stage.. I wanna see him grow up.. i think this bender is it for me... I need to stop.. I wanna stop.. it's so ******* hard. I'm going to have my wife drive me to a meeting when I start feeling better..I'm only hour 26 or so from my last drink.. I feel terrible...there's no way I can have another drink.. I'm not like everyone else.. I can't handle it. I can't drink responsible like other people I know... No one gets it :/..
I had to tell someone.. my wife doesn't understand the power alcohol has on people as she doesn't drink. She just thinks I don't listen to her when she tells me not to drink..
JLS68
Join Date: Jul 2014
Location: Mount Pleasant, Iowa
Posts: 1
I would like to say that this is not hard but it is. You are doing the right thing by reaching out. It was a year and 4 months ago I reached out for help and found out that I could not do this by myself. By the grace of my Higher Power I am sober today. Admitting that we are powerless is a Big Step. No one wants to admit that they are powerless and out of control. Least of all me. I hope that the meeting goes good. Get some numbers and don't be afraid to give them a call. We have all been there. Just remember to take it one day at a time. Sometimes we have to take one hour at a time. I wish you the best of luck!
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