bender
Member
Join Date: Dec 2017
Posts: 32
Why do you want to go on a bender?
is there something in life you want to hide from? The refuge...
Again, this is the part I'm failing to understand....
"Just had a meeting....feels like going on a bender..........solution? another meeting......."
Did the meeting stir things inside you that drove you to thinking of going on a bender? What provoked you?
is there something in life you want to hide from? The refuge...
Again, this is the part I'm failing to understand....
"Just had a meeting....feels like going on a bender..........solution? another meeting......."
Did the meeting stir things inside you that drove you to thinking of going on a bender? What provoked you?
Administrator
Join Date: Aug 2003
Location: Dancing in the Light
Posts: 61,509
You're doing great and you know that going on a bender would harm you and upset you. Don't give up your hard-earned sobriety.
Is there something particular bothering you right now?
Is there something particular bothering you right now?
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,442
I'm sorry you're feeling so antsy GSM - is your husband with you today?
Keep talking to us- we want to help
D
A lot of things spooked me when I first got sober. Even signing up here spooked me - and when I got spooked or felt uncomfortable or out of place or scared, I wanted to drink.
I'm really glad I stuck it out tho cos SR saved my life. I'm sure others will tell you the same about AA.
My wanting to drink wasn't SRs fault - it was just my addiction at work
D
Keep talking to us- we want to help
D
Originally Posted by Bonecracker 
Why do you want to go on a bender?
is there something in life you want to hide from? The refuge...
Again, this is the part I'm failing to understand....
"Just had a meeting....feels like going on a bender..........solution? another meeting......."
Did the meeting stir things inside you that drove you to thinking of going on a bender? What provoked you?
is there something in life you want to hide from? The refuge...
Again, this is the part I'm failing to understand....
"Just had a meeting....feels like going on a bender..........solution? another meeting......."
Did the meeting stir things inside you that drove you to thinking of going on a bender? What provoked you?
I'm really glad I stuck it out tho cos SR saved my life. I'm sure others will tell you the same about AA.
My wanting to drink wasn't SRs fault - it was just my addiction at work
D
Member
Join Date: Dec 2017
Posts: 131
In the early days some meetings I felt like drinking after and others never wanted to drink again. This is why it’s so important to have contact with someone fir after the meeting as for a lot of us that meeting on days is the most important one.
Earth Child
Thread Starter
Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: Edinburgh, Scotland
Posts: 2,004
Sorry am ok my husband is with me sorry i couldn't answer until now
Am full of the cold half a sleep at the time i wrote this post wanted drink because am struggling badly with past stuff feel bad because of flashbacks i can no longer deal with them but my pastor had a few good ideas that can help me
he suggested a small book witch pics of my cats and my husband in it that i can carry around in my pocket also a bag with grounding things in it that i take everywhere with me
Just dont have it at the moment because av not made it or bought stuff for it
Flash back are getting so real and bad kinda though if i drink they will go away
i just want them to go cant deal sorry
havent drank still sober would self injure but i cant either
got to remember i need to stay stable if i want to see a gender therapist and get my op to becoming male i have to stop self injuring all together
Am full of the cold half a sleep at the time i wrote this post wanted drink because am struggling badly with past stuff feel bad because of flashbacks i can no longer deal with them but my pastor had a few good ideas that can help me
he suggested a small book witch pics of my cats and my husband in it that i can carry around in my pocket also a bag with grounding things in it that i take everywhere with me
Just dont have it at the moment because av not made it or bought stuff for it
Flash back are getting so real and bad kinda though if i drink they will go away
i just want them to go cant deal sorry
havent drank still sober would self injure but i cant either
got to remember i need to stay stable if i want to see a gender therapist and get my op to becoming male i have to stop self injuring all together
Administrator
Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,442
We may have different issues and triggers but your AV is the same as mine and everyone else here GMS.
It lies to you and tries to convince you drinking would make things better = but if that was true, you'd never have come here in the first place,
Wherever the answers are they are not in the bottom of a glass.
Please stay with us and stay strong.
D
It lies to you and tries to convince you drinking would make things better = but if that was true, you'd never have come here in the first place,
Wherever the answers are they are not in the bottom of a glass.
Please stay with us and stay strong.
D
Blue Belt
Join Date: Jul 2015
Location: Soberville, USA
Posts: 4,174
Grant,
For me...getting clean was about suffering. Defeating each crave requires suffering.
If i want to drink I am immediately suffering. Sometimes I pray, other times I just suffer through it.
When the crave eventually goes away, thank God they do, I feel amazing.
Things have changed for the better so slowly since May 2015.
Even w my slips, I have healed dramatically.
All physical issues are all but gone. Mentally, I am still learning.
But, knowing that I am not drunk gives me a ton of confidence.
Usually, I keep to myself, quietly avoiding issues. But, now that I am not hungover or waiting to drink, I can venture into the world of interaction and even confrontation if need be.
Before, i would be worried that my decisions were not solid, do to booze.
Now I can go for it and have full faith I am acting with a fully aware mind.
Reminding myself that I am an addict for life keeps me humble.
Forgetting that I was a total wreck, scared to drive my car on the freeway for months and months is something I can never let happen.
I have to routinely remind myself, with the help of SR, that so many other physical and mental issues have ALL dissapated because I am booze free.
The AV lurks....for life.
Thanks.
For me...getting clean was about suffering. Defeating each crave requires suffering.
If i want to drink I am immediately suffering. Sometimes I pray, other times I just suffer through it.
When the crave eventually goes away, thank God they do, I feel amazing.
Things have changed for the better so slowly since May 2015.
Even w my slips, I have healed dramatically.
All physical issues are all but gone. Mentally, I am still learning.
But, knowing that I am not drunk gives me a ton of confidence.
Usually, I keep to myself, quietly avoiding issues. But, now that I am not hungover or waiting to drink, I can venture into the world of interaction and even confrontation if need be.
Before, i would be worried that my decisions were not solid, do to booze.
Now I can go for it and have full faith I am acting with a fully aware mind.
Reminding myself that I am an addict for life keeps me humble.
Forgetting that I was a total wreck, scared to drive my car on the freeway for months and months is something I can never let happen.
I have to routinely remind myself, with the help of SR, that so many other physical and mental issues have ALL dissapated because I am booze free.
The AV lurks....for life.
Thanks.
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