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Originally Posted by Mac4711 
Mera,
I think it would also be good to put in all into perspective. Do you think 500 years from now people will say: ‘Oh, we remember it well, in the year 2017 AD Mera once wired the wrong amount! What a shame! The people of Italy and the world will never forget!’?
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I think it would also be good to put in all into perspective. Do you think 500 years from now people will say: ‘Oh, we remember it well, in the year 2017 AD Mera once wired the wrong amount! What a shame! The people of Italy and the world will never forget!’?
;-)
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If you are worried about how you are performing at work, ask a supervisor or a higher-up if you are doing ok, or if there is something that they suggest you do differently. I am sure they will affirm that you are doing great. But sometimes it is just nice to hear that. And if there are specific files/accounts that worry you, take them out, look at them, and recheck your numbers. Again. The work issues that keep me awake at night become less scary when I actually look at the files and realize that my fears are not based in reality.
As to the urge to drink, just remember to “play the tape forward”. You don’t have to be a fortune teller to be able to predict what will be the consequences if you begin drinking again. For you, for your children and, most importantly, for your mental well being.
All of us here who know you remember how you were doing when you were drinking. It wasn’t good, Mera.
Stay strong. Get past this rough patch. You can DO this.
As to the urge to drink, just remember to “play the tape forward”. You don’t have to be a fortune teller to be able to predict what will be the consequences if you begin drinking again. For you, for your children and, most importantly, for your mental well being.
All of us here who know you remember how you were doing when you were drinking. It wasn’t good, Mera.
Stay strong. Get past this rough patch. You can DO this.
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Thank you for your support and encouragement. I am definitely not drinking, that would only make things much, much worse.
I have two more days with the woman leaving, I will make the most of them. My manager and boss think I am doing a good job, so that is good. I am just really nervous for the huge amount of stuff I need to take care of and keeping track of everything. It is all the accounting- incoming and outgoing, but also the organisation of our staff, communication with our clients, reports, etc, etc.
Yesterday I made a full list of everything I need to do weekly, monthly and then before and after each event. We are going to go over it together on Monday to make sure I got everything.
I'm dealing with the anxiety as best I can, have cut way down on my coffee and am drinking tension tamer tea at night.
I have two more days with the woman leaving, I will make the most of them. My manager and boss think I am doing a good job, so that is good. I am just really nervous for the huge amount of stuff I need to take care of and keeping track of everything. It is all the accounting- incoming and outgoing, but also the organisation of our staff, communication with our clients, reports, etc, etc.
Yesterday I made a full list of everything I need to do weekly, monthly and then before and after each event. We are going to go over it together on Monday to make sure I got everything.
I'm dealing with the anxiety as best I can, have cut way down on my coffee and am drinking tension tamer tea at night.
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Hi all, just a check in. Yesterday was my first day alone..... and I CRUSHED IT!!!! I am thrilled by my performance. I really was on the top of my game. I got things organised to suit my needs and my style. I got a TON of work done, just an enormous amount. I didn't miss a thing, not make a mistake. I feel so happy and relived. I know that tougher days will come where I won't be as sharp for whatever reason, but I was happy to make it through yesterday without drowning. I owe ALL of this to my sobriety. No way, no way in hell I would have been able to a. get this job b. keep this job or c. perform well if I were drinking.
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Originally Posted by Meraviglioso
Hi all, just a check in. Yesterday was my first day alone..... and I CRUSHED IT!!!! I am thrilled by my performance. I really was on the top of my game. I got things organised to suit my needs and my style. I got a TON of work done, just an enormous amount. I didn't miss a thing, not make a mistake. I feel so happy and relived. I know that tougher days will come where I won't be as sharp for whatever reason, but I was happy to make it through yesterday without drowning. I owe ALL of this to my sobriety. No way, no way in hell I would have been able to a. get this job b. keep this job or c. perform well if I were drinking.
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Originally Posted by Meraviglioso
Thank you for your support and encouragement. I am definitely not drinking, that would only make things much, much worse.
I have two more days with the woman leaving, I will make the most of them. My manager and boss think I am doing a good job, so that is good. I am just really nervous for the huge amount of stuff I need to take care of and keeping track of everything. It is all the accounting- incoming and outgoing, but also the organisation of our staff, communication with our clients, reports, etc, etc.
Yesterday I made a full list of everything I need to do weekly, monthly and then before and after each event. We are going to go over it together on Monday to make sure I got everything.
I'm dealing with the anxiety as best I can, have cut way down on my coffee and am drinking tension tamer tea at night.
I have two more days with the woman leaving, I will make the most of them. My manager and boss think I am doing a good job, so that is good. I am just really nervous for the huge amount of stuff I need to take care of and keeping track of everything. It is all the accounting- incoming and outgoing, but also the organisation of our staff, communication with our clients, reports, etc, etc.
Yesterday I made a full list of everything I need to do weekly, monthly and then before and after each event. We are going to go over it together on Monday to make sure I got everything.
I'm dealing with the anxiety as best I can, have cut way down on my coffee and am drinking tension tamer tea at night.
One of them, a gen x I think, had all the requisite skills and would be ideal for the job, but she doubted her own ability, had no confidence.
The other, a gen y, was brimming with confidence but completely lacked the skills.
One generation had skills but no confidence, the next, confidence but no skills.
Part of the point of this is that it is common among the general population to feel this way, and has nothing to do with alcoholism.
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