New Idea
 

I’ve been under the impression that I’ve been a heavy drinker for the past four years only.
At rehab I even told this to the counselor.
I’ve just been thinking this-yet it ain’t the truth.
This seems uncanny but I’ve done lots of sober thinking and it is far from the truth.
But I wasn’t lying- even to myself. I just didn’t think on my past.
I’ve been binge drinking for 34 years!
One month out of that time I was a daily drinker.
It just took some thinking on my part to realize this.
This is difficult to explain, too. I have zero memory issues. I was aware of my past but I just focused on the past few years...
I guess I’m figuring it all out now...I guess I’m able to now.