For the past two days,
 

and approaching a month of sobriety, my complacency grew much more than I’d realized. My last post only hinted at this, really, yet it wasn’t until this morn that I came to said realization.
I was planning ways to get drinks while my family would remain unknowing. I’ve done this for years and when I’m sober long enough, I feel that I’ll be able to finally drink normally.
This time, however, I said no. To myself- to this insane idea.
And when I woke up, the idea of wanting to drink was gone.
Yep, this time is decidedly different from all the times when I really didn’t intend to quit for good.

That is so fantastic that
A. you didn't cave to the terrible AV
B. The feeling past

You are making great progress!

Good for you Rodney.
I am glad you beat it.

Secrets and lies are a real hindrance to a sober life. It isn't just drinking or not drinking that makes me successful, it's having integrity in the small things and in my relationships.

We can lie to other people should we choose to - but we should never lie to ourselves.

Keep true to yourself and your intention Rodney.

Good job

Sometimes this thing is kinda tough, but if we are patient the thoughts or urges will pass.

I had done this for so long my brain would default to this type of scheming when left unchaperoned. I had to force it to think about other things for quite a while.

Now I don't.

Keep doing what you're doing and some day you won't. :c011: