A Bit Different
 

This may be a slightly different type of post and it’s my chronicle that I hope to look back on in time and see what my mind was doing during the first stages of my first “quitting time”.
This morning I feel better than I have in over 20 days both mentally and physically
Therefore I’m thinking about getting a 12 pack of Heineken, Guinness or Bud Heavy and cranking Merle Haggard or Hank 3
That’s the way I’ve thought throughout my life only this time I ain’t gonna
Sure am not
I don’t understand completely why I won’t but this complacency always happens just like this
Insidiousness abounds
I am never gonna be able to do this- it’s out of the question
But it lingers

Rodney,

Even at my number of months clean I still think the exact thing.

I feel great, time to drink.

That is the addiction. It is for life.

I remember when i quit for about a month....years ago.

I decided it was ok to drink. I got wasted on cheap booze and beer.

It was sad. Drunk, staggering, slurring, fat, lazy.

I woke up the next day and was right back into the addiction.

God didn't design us to be addicts. It is a learned behavior.

Thanks.

Glad you're not going to drink. Nothing good ever comes from drinking. :( As you get more sober time, those thoughts are fewer until one day you'll realize you're not thinking of drinking anymore. :)

I still fantasize a drink at times,but it's no different than thinking about an ex and forgetting all of their negative qualities for a while. Once the 'nightmare memories' come back,the fantasy is quickly dismissed for what it really is;bad for me in all ways.

merle,hank,waylon,johnny, and all them sound much better now that im sober. much more meaning to the lyrics.

Don't believe everything you think.

The worst thing that ever happened to me from not drinking was feeling like I wanted to drink. That's OK. I can do that.

You can do that.

:ring

regular posting here helped me overcome my complacency and my rationalisations that maybe my problem was not so bad after all :)

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