Low day
 

Hey all . This is so hard . 5 weeks afyer he left he contacted me day before Christmas eve . Was doing kinda o right having good and bad days . Not a good day today . I know what I need to do . He says he's a changed man and doesn't drink at all but things don't make sense . I want to believe him but I don't think I do . Why is it that I miss him so much when he never put me first or treated me like I should be . How can someone miss a bad thing!!! Knowing it makes them unhappy. The relationship was so so difficult . And know all's I've done today is cry and think and cry some more . I was doing well . I really was . I can't keep this up it will make me bad . Feeling pretty alone tonight .

Hi Emz,

I'm sorry you are feeling bad tonight. I hear lots of good things in your post though. I hear that you know you deserve to be treated well, and you are absolutely right!

I once heard/read (can't remember) "that which retreats from us we pursue".

Maybe you should tell him that all options could be on the table - but it would take a much longer and clearer recovery record for you to even consider it?

I suppose I am saying - buy yourself some time and rush into nothing at all (either way).

Strength and love from the UK

JT

Thanks sent back from the UK. Justvgitta stop delwellibg tonight as this is no good at all . Going to do something I like in a while try to take my mind off all this . I won't do that I'm stronger now it's just messes with my emotions .

Thankyou. We all deserve to be treated well. So can't understand why I miss the relationship so very much .

Correct. The mind is a tricky beast.

Don't let yours turn in on itself. That's never good.