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Old 12-24-2017, 06:53 PM
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I drank. I'm done with this. Sorry guys.
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Old 12-24-2017, 06:59 PM
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Why are you done?

Why are you HERE if you are Done?

Why do you keep drinking?

Focus on now. Pour it out. Don't wake up with regret. Force it.

And stay here with us. You already extended that arm, we grabbed it, now climb up with us.
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Old 12-24-2017, 07:06 PM
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203 days gone. I don't even know where I am after this. Sucks...
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Old 12-24-2017, 07:19 PM
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Just start over. You aren't alone!
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Old 12-24-2017, 07:31 PM
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Day one? The worst of all days. I saw this coming.
I turned my back on this site. Anyone reading... if you feel alone and scared to reach out... do it no matter what! Even if it makes you feel weak... it's the exact opposite. I suck at giving advice but I know alcohol sucks and it's ruining my life. I'm drunk... I feel like **** and I wish I was back on my old routine (7 months without the poisen).
Tomorrow's gunna suck. Night y'all.
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Old 12-24-2017, 07:35 PM
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Iím sorry to hear you drank. Why did you decide to start again? When I started drinking again after a length period abstinence, I started to romance the drinking lifestyle long before the relapse happened. Maybe that had something to do with it. Definitely keep posting. It took me a couple of years to get stopped again. Donít make the same mistake I did.
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Old 12-24-2017, 07:39 PM
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My last relapse came after six months sobriety. I was crushed. But then I had a moment of clarity that I could not keep drinking without dire consequences.

Now I've got 8 yrs sober. It wasn't fun starting over but I did and stayed sober. It can be done. Give yourself another chance at a good life.
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Old 12-24-2017, 07:50 PM
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Iím sorry to hear you drank. Why did you decide to start again? When I started drinking again after a length period abstinence, I started to romance the drinking lifestyle long before the relapse happened. Maybe that had something to do with it. Definitely keep posting. It took me a couple of years to get stopped again. Donít make the same mistake I did.
I stopped caring. I wish I cared more...
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Old 12-24-2017, 07:55 PM
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We are here for you, LoveForMe.

Your 203 days are not gone. Use those days as the foundation of your new sobriety.

Start again.. Examine went wrong - your mindsets in the days and weeks prior to this drinking; the situation surrounding this current drinking. Shore up the holes in your plan and move forward.

Onward, together!!!
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Old 12-24-2017, 08:11 PM
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I can't pour it. I'm scared. It's all I have... my best friend. Sounds pathetic, I know.
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Old 12-24-2017, 08:27 PM
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It is far from your best friend, LoveForMe. It cares nothing for you at all.

We do care about you, LoveForMe. Please pour it out.

Living in sobriety is exponentially better.

Pour it out; drink plenty of water and go to bed.

Tomorrow is a new day - one with promise.
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Old 12-24-2017, 08:28 PM
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Nah, alcohol is not your friend at all. Your friends are right here pulling for you. You do care or you wouldn't be so upset. You can stop this right now.

Pour out that poison. Start again tomorrow ... you'll never regret stopping. The same can't be said for continuing to drink.

Whatever brought you to this point can be worked out. It took courage to come here and post. You can do this, all is not lost.

I believe in you, LoveForMe.
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Old 12-24-2017, 08:57 PM
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I dumped it. But here I am, waiting in the car for my bf to get more vodka. This is a sick game. Please, people, come to your senses. I messed up. Momentum is what kept me going... I'm lost now.
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Old 12-24-2017, 09:18 PM
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You are not alone Love - Many of us have been there. Don't beat yourself up - you did it before and you WILL get through it again. Now that you know how much better life us without alcohol, make it your goal ti get back there as soon as possible. Get to sleep - tomorrow is a new day. Take care of yourself first tomorrow
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I only have one day sober, because in my eyes, this is a one day at a time journey.

You didn't LOSE that 203 days, although your sneaky little manipulative addiction (if it's anything like mine) is going to tell you that's a good reason to throw in the towel together.

The way I see it, you can have a sober day tomorrow just like I'm having one today. What an awesome x-mas present to yourself that would be

Rooting for ya!
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Iím glad you dumped the alcohol. Try to get some good sleep and donít forget to reach out here or IRL as soon as possible when you wake up. Donít give up hope. We really all can have a happy, sober life if we want it🙂
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Old 12-24-2017, 10:17 PM
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You're here.

You're not lost.

You're reaching out NOW.

Go to bed. Come back as soon as you wake. We will be all here to put our arms around you. Here to listen to you. Here to share stories about how we had so many bumps in the road too.

Never give in. Ever.

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This is not a sprint - it's more a marathon. You drank today but you don't have to drink tomorrow. Regroup, re commitment and redraw your action plan - you can do this LoveForMe

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I'm drunk... I feel like ****
Been there, done that.
That voice in my head told me drinking would make me feel better, but it was a lie.

Another lie it told me was the sober time I had before drinking again was 'wasted'. That by drinking again that previous sober time no longer counted or mattered. So much easier to keep me drinking if I believe those lies.

One day I realized that over the past 25 years that voice had never told me one true thing. Not one.

I quit taking advice from a known liar and my life got a lot better. I highly recommend it.

You can do this.
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When you wake today, it is a new day. 203 days is amazing, you can get back to it. Just make it ONE day of drinking, not more.

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