tonisherrell

How did I get to this place once again? I know I had that first sip after 12 days dry. Ive been drinking every day this week. And now im sitting here with the last few shots in my glass of the pint I bought a few hours ago. All I can think about is I only have 45 mins to go to the store and grab a 4 pack of beer to top my night off. I took off work tomorrow to go xmas shopping and plus I have a doctors appointment early in the morning.. i wish Ive never took that first sip..i will likely go back to the store before that 45 mins is up.. sad.. im a waste of space

JustTony

You're not a waste of space. Not one bit.

You're beautiful and worth it. You're troubled, imperfect, suffering - but mendable.

You want to get better or you wouldn't be posting but your AV is like a demon saying "another 4 wont hurt now so might as well sink lower today".

Please don't. Tip the rest away. Go to bed. Sleep. Wake up - make a coffee - and join us in the December thread. Yes you'll be blurry eyed and feeling like c**p - but you will be OUR 'blurry eyed and and feeling like c**p' companion...

Love from the UK to you.

PS - If you take my advice above then what is the WORST that can happen? The answer is nothing. If you don't what is the worst that can happen? A lot. Please tip it away and go to sleep?

Forward12

Why not dump it and make tomorrow day 1? Continuing to drink will do nothing but make things worse.

Dee74

Hi Toni
- don't go out and get more. I dunno whether you're walking or not but it's safer for you to stay home.

You have so much evidence of where drinking leads you and how it doesn't help

What about putting your faith in another way this time? a different choice?

What about not drinking anymore and waking up reasonably ok tomorrow and thinking about a recovery action plan for yourself to help you stay sober?

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...very-plan.html (What exactly is a recovery plan?)

D

january161992

yours is a very common story ive heard thousands? probably hundreds of times at meetings

you aint alone !

aa is like a big fun sober social club

check it out !

Canuckleman45

You're not a waste of space............youre a human being. Dump the rest down the drain and go to bed. You'll feel better in the morning for it.

Nic233

We've all been there. You're certainly not a waste of space and I think it's a great thing that you're posting on here. I have to agree with everyone else about not picking up any more. Make tomorrow your day one x

Dee74

how are you toni?

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KG77

Been there, done that, got the T- shirt and it has my name on it! 😕. I hope you're doing better today Toni.

Gabe1980

It's really hard Toni but you had 12 days and you can do it again. Fluids, good food, rest. Reach out to someone to spend some supportive time with. Best wishes to you. Gabe x

Zanna

Can't really add anything, but just wanted to let you know, that I'm here for you as well.
Shields UP

Habiscus

How'd it go?

FLCamper

12 days is a good stretch. You can do it again and then extend it. Can the Dr. help you at your appointment today? There are a lot of options out there - maybe talk to him while you're there.

Delilah1

How are you today Toni?

tonisherrell

Im okay I made it to day 2 but I found a can of beer in my fridge that i cant seem to toss out

JustTony

Just tip it down the sink. What's one beer going to do for you other than set you back again?

Dee74

I hope you decided to dump it toni
Go down a different path today

D

AnvilheadII

give it a really good shake. remember, you can CHOOSE not to drink.