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Old 12-21-2017, 05:23 AM
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Not sure how long it's been

I've neglected this place for a while, I'm back again I'm pissed. I want out. I really do hate myself. I'm sick of the cycle. I dunno what to do anymore
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Old 12-21-2017, 05:25 AM
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Originally Posted by bradley26 View Post
I've neglected this place for a while, I'm back again I'm pissed. I want out. I really do hate myself. I'm sick of the cycle. I dunno what to do anymore
Coming back is a step in the right direction. Welcome back!
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Old 12-21-2017, 05:27 AM
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Decide you're out - and you're out.

I hope you go into 2018 sober and ready to live again. It gets a lot better after alcohol is no longer in the story.
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Old 12-21-2017, 05:40 AM
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Not sure how long it's been

A while. You post, then disappear back into drinking. Try sticking around. Post daily. Post several times a day, until sobriety sticks.

You have to commit to sobriety, then do whatever it takes to support that decision.
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Old 12-21-2017, 05:50 AM
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Thank u for the replies , I'm mentally in a bad place right now. Carl I remember u from previous posts u seem like a cool guy and it's embarrassing i keep coming back here whining, I feel ashamed. I'll try posting more often I just feel like a fail ure
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Old 12-21-2017, 05:54 AM
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Welcome back Bradley - how about hanging around this time?
You can do it!
For the record - 16 months
Are you OK Bradley?
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Old 12-21-2017, 01:32 PM
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Yeah I'm OK thanks zanna
Just feeling sorry for myself I think
Hate feeling like this when I drink I get depressed and have crazy thoughts. Best sleep it off I guess
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Old 12-21-2017, 01:42 PM
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Welcome back, Bradley; I am very sorry that you have been struggling but it is good to see.

Have you seen Dee's thread on the I,portable of a Plan.

I will link it for you in a minute!
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Old 12-21-2017, 01:45 PM
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As promised, Bradley:

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...highlight=Psst (Psst...wanna know why I'm always recommending recovery plans?)
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Old 12-21-2017, 02:00 PM
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I think a lot, if not all, of us have came back here a few times feeling as you do. I know I did. It's really helped me reach a year(one night slip in there) by sticking close to here and the occasional AA meetings I hit up when I need to/can. This place has been the #1 in my staying sober this long(longest time in my adult life). Sleep it off and try and come here daily..especially during the times you 'need a drink' post before you do. That's been huge for me this past year! Even though most of the time I see other threads make my mind up to not 'have one',so I rarely even need to start my own.

Nice to meet you btw and hope to see you around here.
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Old 12-21-2017, 02:31 PM
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Thank u soberleigh.
Dontremember, I understand what it saying, coming on here helps so much , I kept coming on here last year then messed up. I'm gonna try and come here as much as possible from now on. I looked earlier and it's been 5 years since I singed up. Makes me feel sick. Time to act
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Old 12-21-2017, 02:32 PM
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Welcome back aboard, sleep it off , finish metabolizing, get it out of your system. If you have the opportunity and or means of using medical services in the intervention and amelioration of the physiological effects, do it.
And then don't put the poison back into your bloodstream ever again, you're not a failure , you've succeeded in getting more drinks, stop doing that , you Can , Rootin for ya
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Old 12-21-2017, 02:36 PM
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Originally Posted by bradley26 View Post
Thank u soberleigh.
Dontremember, I understand what it saying, coming on here helps so much , I kept coming on here last year then messed up. I'm gonna try and come here as much as possible from now on. I looked earlier and it's been 5 years since I singed up. Makes me feel sick. Time to act
Make this YOUR time, Bradley. Give yourself the Gift of a Lifetime!
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Old 12-21-2017, 05:27 PM
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Welcome back Bradley - that link Leigh posted is a good place to start.

I didn't want to have to work on my recovery either.

But when you think about it, we work pretty hard at getting drunk and then at dealing with all the consequences of that.

Either way is an long term committed effort.

I'd rather make a concerted effort for change than more of the same.

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Hi Bradley - I remember you well. It's good to see you.

We have to be ready, and it sounds like you finally are. I ended up thoroughly disgusted with myself & mortified at my behavior. There was no joy or fun in life - & instead of being relaxed, I was filled with anxiety. It was wonderful to get free of it. We know you can!
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Bradley, feeling ashamed is one of the ways that alcoholism keeps us hooked. The shame leads us right back to drinking.

I'm glad you're here now and posting. You know you will always find lots of support here.
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Old 12-22-2017, 10:51 AM
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Thanks guys, good advice as usual, I appreciate it. Woke up this morning feeling awful and the plan for drinking over Christmas and then stopping has been canceled.

I'm not gonna put it off so today is day one. Im gonna definitely post more often like I did a while back when I had about 4 months sober.
I'm definitely at that point where I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. I Literally cannot do this anymore. 2018 has to be the year I get my life back.
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Hi Bradley,

I've done the same twice (even changed my screen name once).

If I'm here I stay on the straight and narrow. If I drink and leave I stay drunk for ages.

Why not join us in the December thread?

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...-pt-2-a-5.html
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Very wise to not put it off, Bradley! Imagine how sick & miserable you might be if you drank through the holidays. Good decision.
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Originally Posted by bradley26 View Post
Thanks guys, good advice as usual, I appreciate it. Woke up this morning feeling awful and the plan for drinking over Christmas and then stopping has been canceled.

I'm not gonna put it off so today is day one. Im gonna definitely post more often like I did a while back when I had about 4 months sober.
I'm definitely at that point where I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. I Literally cannot do this anymore. 2018 has to be the year I get my life back.
Well done on choosing Day 1. It can be a difficult day but it the day when the magic is allowed to begin.

Stay close, Bradley.

So good to have you back.
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