A long terrible relapse
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Join Date: Dec 2012
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A long terrible relapse
For the last year, I have been on my worst bender yet. I had 2 brushes with death and multiple ER and detox trips. I am very lucky not not to have been arrested as for the first time in my life I began shoplifting and purposely walking out on bar tabs out of desperation. I also lost a job and ruined 2 separate budding realtionships. I spent thousands of dollars on my drinking lifestyle and am broke again. I have no doubt I will die if I don"t stop for good
I need your support SR
I need your support SR
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Join Date: Nov 2017
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Hey WL. I took a long break from SR as well and my old account wasn't working anymore. But I remember you. I'm so glad you're back.
As long as you are alive and breathing today, you have another chance. A chance to change everything. Even though I'm sure you are battling depression or urges or whatever early sobriety looks like for you, it WILL get better. As long as you put one foot in front of the other, don't be afraid to ask for help, and keep moving forward.
You can do this - not alone - but you can do this. I believe in you.
As long as you are alive and breathing today, you have another chance. A chance to change everything. Even though I'm sure you are battling depression or urges or whatever early sobriety looks like for you, it WILL get better. As long as you put one foot in front of the other, don't be afraid to ask for help, and keep moving forward.
You can do this - not alone - but you can do this. I believe in you.
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Join Date: Aug 2007
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You are finally ready to get free of it, and we're so glad you're here. I understand how you're feeling - at the end of my drinking career I was doing reckless, insane things. It was so good to finally put an end to the dangerous life I'd been living. You can do it, wastingtime.
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Join Date: Dec 2017
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I absolutely remember you (I had a different name, but we were in the same class at one point: 2014? Crazy). I too have relapsed despite a sober stint last year. Let's get back on track together. 
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Join Date: Dec 2012
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Thanks everyone. I am going back to AA for starters. Taking it one day at a time. When I am drinking, I become a different person. A pathological liar. A manipulator. Obnoxious. I don't understand that side of me. I just want to be my normal self again.
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Join Date: Jan 2014
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hey there wastinglife..... I'm glad you're back with us.
You can turn this around.
EMBRACE SOBRIETY NOW!!!
Then, in the next now.... repeat that.
And again....
And again.....
Diving deeper and hugging on stronger each time.
You can turn this around.
EMBRACE SOBRIETY NOW!!!
Then, in the next now.... repeat that.
And again....
And again.....
Diving deeper and hugging on stronger each time.
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Join Date: Dec 2016
Location: Northwest U.S.
Posts: 778
Welcome back to SR, wastinglife! Time spent here is most certainly worth your while. I'm sending support your way. Make a plan, follow the plan, man. One foot before the other, one moment at a time. You can do this.
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