Willow3

To have to return again. But My binge drinking started happening again. Back to bottle of wine every weekend minimum. Bavk to sneaking an extra. Slippery slope. Very anxious at the moment. I haven't actually drank since friday but I downed a bottle of wine on my own. I'm 35 and I hate alcohol yet I always seem drawn to it. I read something today about a woman who got cirrhosis locally to me at age 43. She drank everyday all day for 13 years. So I am praying I haven't done any harm as I usually drink no more than twice a week. 3 times on occasions. But it got me scared. Kind of paranoid now I could have done damage and not realise as this lady didn't know until a yr before her death. I don't want to drink. I'm not going to drink. I have said it all before but it's getting very real now. I just hope No damage is done. My young children need me.

jbhall

I understand. I hear you. It's embarrassing and terrifying. Worrying about my health and my liver, and not living a long life for my children brings me the most fear and guilt.

Berrybean

Maybe it's time to get a recovery plan as well as staying sober, that way it's more likely to be sustainable.

And the best way for not having to return? Don't leave. Stick around and keep reading and posting. Every day.

If you want this time to be different then you need to do something different this time.

Wishing you all the best for your sobriety and recovery. BB

Silverback4

Glad your here, advice above from Berry is spot on.
Things will get better if you focus on your sobriety.

ScottFromWI

Welcome back willow. Our bodies are pretty resilient, glad you've made the realization and decision to quit and stay quit. I'd agree with the others that making a plan to follow on a regular basis is key - make being sober an everyday part of your life.

Nonsensical

Welcome back!

This statement is passive. It helped me be more actively involved in solving my problem when I actively acknowledged my contribution to the problem.

Best of Luck on Your Journey.

JustTony

I think you recognise that you are at a very early stage of what could be a chronic alcohol abuse issue? Anytime you want to steer clear of something and find yourself doing it anyway is always a bad sign.

Anna

Willow, I'm glad you're here and working on sobriety.

Dee74

We don't shoot our wounded here Wilow - welcome back

Have you thought about what you might do differently this time?

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SoulShine8

Welcome back willow. Reading to understand my alcoholism here at SR has been a saving grace to me. It also made me feel not so alone. Other people think the same crazy way I do (once did). And there are bunches and bunches here that stopped drinking and stayed stopped. There is always hope as long as you are trying - you can do it

Willow3

Thank you all I have spent the last few hours reading through many posts on here and will continue to do so. I have no plan yet but I am working on it. Not drinking obviously. Figuring out how to resist over christmas I need to really plan for. Since my bottle of wine on friday I have had awful heartburn.
Yes It was passive. I started binge drinking is what I should have said

Verdantia

Hello, Willow. I am glad you're here. SR has been immensely helpful in my sobriety. Our bodies and our livers can take a lot of abuse and snap back to health. I hope you have a renewed commitment to sobriety at the end of this year. You never have to drink again. So many good people here understand and have your back.