andyh

thanks all

I had a lousy day on Sunday - I always get restless & jittery before milestones. I tend to over-focus on what is, really, a somewhat arbitrary number. a little more mindfulness in future I think. & maybe some actual cake, not just a picture

SoulShine8

yeah bim whatever that is... yummy looking!
I've been feasting on all the sweets and treats from Tday and the upcoming holidays. I will be in sugar withdrawal in January I am sure!

BixBees505

Andyh, with the date past, I hope you can feel a happier relaxed appreciation for your accomplishment. Milestones make me really jittery, too. In fact, I keep myself fuzzily unsure of my counts. I know generally, of course, but precision only makes me nervous and obsessive. Ha!

STDragon...hugs...hope you are feeling better. How are things today?

Yesterday I overslept and was crazy anxious and “off” all day. Could not get back on track at work. Ditched two meetings with zero explanation. Accomplished a fraction of what was due.

I feel GOOD today. Slept great, up on time. Have a plan in mind to catch up. But I will not apologize at work for yesterday. It won’t help. I just need to deliver what is late and what is now due. And I will.

My productivity is so far below what I was once known for. But in those days I worked 70-hr weeks, week after week after week, and drove my team just as hard. I just dont have that in me anymore. I should have left this work back then. But I didnt, still at it, and the environment has changed around me. There is enough goodwill and tolerance for me to continue, doing best I can as the new, slower, less driven, sober...me.

Sorry for the full page spread here. So glad to have a place to share this, though.

BixBees505

Hi HAS! Good to see you, you warrior!

Healthyandsober

Thank you for sharing BixBees505, i feel exactly the same minus the past 70 hrs working days (i have never been that great but now I'm just pure confused all the time

I hope you feel better Dragon, thank you Glimer

Hi Guys, I am 56 days and its been a party after the other exchange gift party at work , my sis birthday, all kind of situations I'm i feel soooooo akward and paranoid like everyone is talking about me

im sober and soon ill be 60 days but jesus when are the holidays over?

Also losing my job in january and my building is being sold :headband

ha ha sorry for the negative post it seems to be the norm but i don't have anyone to say these things to. I'm so annoyed of all these people drinking around me

happy Tuesday thank you for being here ill try to be here more. Happy Tuesday!

BixBees505

I’ll say it again, as we cross-posted!

Hi HAS! Good to see you, you warrior! It always does me SO much good to see you post!

BixBees505

Ok, I am almost done monopolizing this morning on SR. Sheesh.
So...having breakfast, then I am off to KILL IT at work.
Best to you all for a good day or night as your time zone dictates!

Later.

andyh

have a good day Bix

biminiblue

Bix I'm glad you're posting. We always want to hear how it's going.

I gave up the rat race to the top long ago. It may come back to bite me some day due to lack of savings, but I believe it will all work out. Or is that denial I hear clanging in my head?

H&S, the building being sold sounds like a good time to move on anyway. And that feeling that everyone is talking about you is really common in early sobriety and with anxiety disorders in general.

In AA they said, "What other people think of me is none of my business." That sounded too easy and too flippant to me at the time, but dangit, it's true. First, I can't mindread. Second, even if I could I couldn't change other peoples' thoughts. Third, now I'm exhausted just thinking about it!

People talk. Not a thing you can do about it other than take the high road and not talk about others. You'd be surprised how freeing it is to stop gossiping. Just walk away.

So I broke my rule of not posting desserts because I love Gilmer. That will be the last food porn from me. Everybody better get a bite.

Seven more days. Seven. I can do this.

andyh

I must have missed this. what's happening in seven days?

biminiblue

It's the day after Christmas.

I'm not really a fan. I always feel a huge relief when the 26th comes.

andyh

oic. can't say I'm feeling very festive this year & won't be too upset when it's over with.

when are the eagles' eggs due to hatch?

biminiblue

Hatch Watch 2017 says
Egg 1 - Five days and counting down. That makes it Christmas Eve.
Egg 2 - Eight days

Live Eagle Cam

saoutchik

I think you are right to take your foot off the gas BixBees. There comes a point when being "eyeballs out" all the time does us no favours.

HaS bim has a point about if your building is being sold then it might be a good time to leave. Fingers crossed you will find somewhere you will be happier.

We had an office chair race today (I was joint 4th out of 8)

STDragon

Ditto. In fact I begin to worry when we don't hear from you H&S. I know it's silly, but still......

petals

Just caught up,I love reading everyone's posts. I've got huge pressure from my sibling to 'pull my weight with our Dad!' I'm not coping very well with the on going matter... l do what I can but also know they are both very bad for my mental wellbeing... stuck between a rock and a hard place! Mr P says leave them to it and look after myself... sounds sensible but I feel so very guilty... and not matter how many times I say I'm doing my best I just keep being told off and pressured by my sibling 😣 arrrrggghhhh....
Hugs to all from me.xx

andyh

I'm off to do some volunteering today.

then Star Wars this evening with my nephews. I'm going purely for their benefit you understand.

Purplrks3647

(((Petals))) (((H&S))) (((Weekenders)))

Still waking up; just wanted to stop by and say hi while I look for more coffee

Purplrks3647

I haven't gotten any gift shopping done yet, but I did manage to get a few cards mailed out this week ~ this one is my favorite

STDragon

There was a time during my recovery, I think after the three month mark, where I was a bouncy tigger every morning and got up right with my alarm at 4:45am. I'd come here post about how much I love the early mornings. These days, however, I'm draggin myself out of bed after several rounds of hitting the snooze bar. I Only spend a few minutes on SR before I get into the shower and by mid afternoon, I'm dopey and yawning. I can't wait for the break next week. I just want to sleep.....