Today's New Challenge
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Today's New Challenge
A former partner invited me to "dinner" at a very very fancy private club. Very elite.
In the past, we drink for hours, ending up on the upper terrace with cigars and open bar of scotches!!!
Always a bad hangover; always blackout at the end.
This is our holiday "dinner".
I bowed out entirely, claiming a conflict.
So, I know this was best for "my sobriety" but it also feels like another loss -- I get to be a hermit, hiding out in church basements with the kind of people who need to hide out in church basements. Not exactly the way I wanted to live out my life.
In the past, we drink for hours, ending up on the upper terrace with cigars and open bar of scotches!!!
Always a bad hangover; always blackout at the end.
This is our holiday "dinner".
I bowed out entirely, claiming a conflict.
So, I know this was best for "my sobriety" but it also feels like another loss -- I get to be a hermit, hiding out in church basements with the kind of people who need to hide out in church basements. Not exactly the way I wanted to live out my life.
I get to be a hermit, hiding out in church basements with the kind of people who need to hide out in church basements.
hmmm...is that referring to members of AA?
if so, i dont know ANY that are hiding out. they come to meetings to carry the message to the next alcoholic and go on about their lives after.
from the big book:
None of us makes a sole vocation of this work, nor do we think its effectiveness would be increased if we did. We feel that elimination of our drinking is but a beginning. A much more important demonstration of our principles lies before us in our respective homes, occupations and affairs. All of us spend much of our spare time in the sort of effort which we are going to describe.
hmmm...is that referring to members of AA?
if so, i dont know ANY that are hiding out. they come to meetings to carry the message to the next alcoholic and go on about their lives after.
from the big book:
None of us makes a sole vocation of this work, nor do we think its effectiveness would be increased if we did. We feel that elimination of our drinking is but a beginning. A much more important demonstration of our principles lies before us in our respective homes, occupations and affairs. All of us spend much of our spare time in the sort of effort which we are going to describe.
First off, good of you to make the right decision to protect your sobriety.
You haven't been on SR long, so I'm assuming your sobriety has been a few months? A little soon to be attributing what you have to do in the short term to stay sober as your entire life.
When you learn to relish your sobriety, to appreciate your sobriety, you will be able to go anywhere, do anything without risk of drinking. But as I mentioned in an earlier reply, if you view sobriety as a punishment, as depriving you of "fun" or whatever, you will be miserable.
When you learn to relish your sobriety, to appreciate your sobriety, you will be able to go anywhere, do anything without risk of drinking. But as I mentioned in an earlier reply, if you view sobriety as a punishment, as depriving you of "fun" or whatever, you will be miserable.
There's actually a million options between going out with your ex on one hand and being a hermit on the other whether it's in church basements or staying home,, curtains drawn and lights out
Maybe some of the other basement dwellers have some social activities going?
Maybe you can think of things to do that need not involve alcohol - movies, museums, art galleries, coffee dates, sports, hobbies and interests.
For every social occasion you make the decision not to go to this years there'll be 20 or 30 occasions down the road where you will feel strong enough to go anywhere and do anything.
This is not the best things get
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Don't look at sobriety as a negative, it's not. It's a positive lifestyle. I love waking up feeling good. I love being able to go anywhere at any time and not be too drunk or too sick to do anything.
I'm not missing out on hangovers and self hatred. I don't miss guilt or remorse or shame.
I love my sober life. It's a good thing!
I'm not missing out on hangovers and self hatred. I don't miss guilt or remorse or shame.
I love my sober life. It's a good thing!
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Hi Struggling. Now don't read this as me not taking your issue seriously but Dee calling AAers basement dwellers made me laugh! As Dee said, maybe they have other activities you can join in on?
Good job avoiding the dinner & the inevitable blackout.
Look forward to your grateful list on the November thread
Good job avoiding the dinner & the inevitable blackout.
Look forward to your grateful list on the November thread
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