Flashback of hiding.
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Flashback of hiding.
afternoon all
I posted this in the One year and under thread but I than thought I would throw it out here in the main thread to see if helps someone or if someone else has had had the same thing happen and can help me sort the issue out.
Had some anxiety issues flare up recently, almost like flashbacks from my days of hiding "water" ( wine ) bottles, anxiety and paranoia about not hiding them as well as I should have, or forgot to grab the evidence that I was going to throw away somewhere else and left it on the counter.
I was on my way to work when one of these hit me really hard, I had a hard time convincing myself that there were no bottles hiding anywhere, no empties, nothing, it was to the point I almost turned the car around to go back home and check. Physically sick, I just couldn't shut my mind up about it, it was so real, unnerving.
I was hoping I was over those attacks, I am at the 60 + day mark, but my brain at that moment, was acting like I was still drinking and hiding wine like I did 60+ days ago,, I am still not really over it. I find myself double checking all my old hidey holes, for the forgotten stash, even though I did a thorough cleaning and purging months ago.
I do want to make it clear, that I do not want to drink, do not plan on it ever again, the thought of a glass terrifies me. I would just like some input on why I had this mini freak out and if anyone else has had something similar happen.
Thoughts?
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I posted this in the One year and under thread but I than thought I would throw it out here in the main thread to see if helps someone or if someone else has had had the same thing happen and can help me sort the issue out.
Had some anxiety issues flare up recently, almost like flashbacks from my days of hiding "water" ( wine ) bottles, anxiety and paranoia about not hiding them as well as I should have, or forgot to grab the evidence that I was going to throw away somewhere else and left it on the counter.
I was on my way to work when one of these hit me really hard, I had a hard time convincing myself that there were no bottles hiding anywhere, no empties, nothing, it was to the point I almost turned the car around to go back home and check. Physically sick, I just couldn't shut my mind up about it, it was so real, unnerving.
I was hoping I was over those attacks, I am at the 60 + day mark, but my brain at that moment, was acting like I was still drinking and hiding wine like I did 60+ days ago,, I am still not really over it. I find myself double checking all my old hidey holes, for the forgotten stash, even though I did a thorough cleaning and purging months ago.
I do want to make it clear, that I do not want to drink, do not plan on it ever again, the thought of a glass terrifies me. I would just like some input on why I had this mini freak out and if anyone else has had something similar happen.
Thoughts?
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I've read other posts on this forum where people have flashback and drinking dreams. I'm not surprised that these things occur as most of us spent a large portion of our lives drinking to excess and participated in some shameful behavior. Wouldn't let it stand in the way of continuing forward to sobriety.
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