Messed up again
 

I just got through 10 days of sobriety after 15 years of drinking daily. It was remarkably easy. I felt great and proud of myself every day. For whatever reason, I just wanted to drink today come hell or high water. knowing that I would feel shame, knowing that I wouldn't feel good tomorrow, knowing that it's bad for my health, knowing that I would let myself down again. And I debated all day, and the alcoholic in me won again. But I won't let him win tomorrow. God bless everyone that struggles with this menace.

You're certainly not alone. That drinking thinking got me drunk so many times I couldn't count them. Sometimes after even months of sobriety.
You could come here the next time you have those thoughts. Have you considered a group meeting like AA?
I found it very beneficial.
Just want to let you know you're not alone. I was a daily drinker for ten years, too. It took me awhile to recover.

Just pick yourself up and start again. I had to. A lot.
Best to you.

I'm sorry you drank elnotcho but I can guarantee that places like SR can tip the balance next time - you gotta use them tho....
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Many times. I've been to AA a lot. I don't like it. I prefer to figure this out on my own with help. I'm here. I have no interest in AA nor the steps.

Good Luck.

I slipped yesterday too after 7 days sobor . The temptation was to big and my AV won .
Now I'm hungover tired anxious ... Last week I had the worst hangover ever and I promised I would never put myself though hat again . But as always I did

Be prepared next time with a plan.
I've been there, too. Just keep trying and don't give up.