I am so sick of myself
Shame won't help anything--sometimes it just takes not giving up.
Believe me, I've had plenty of relapses and still continue to fight this.
But, overall the sober-time is longer and better each try.
So don't feel bad--we really understand how hard it is.
Just keep posting and keep quitting
Believe me, I've had plenty of relapses and still continue to fight this.
But, overall the sober-time is longer and better each try.
So don't feel bad--we really understand how hard it is.
Just keep posting and keep quitting
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Join Date: Feb 2016
Posts: 2,654
Please don’t stop trying to quit, because one day the quit will stick and become permanent. You never know which day one will be the final day one: so why not give it another try....this could be it!
Plus, to compliment quitting drinking, there are ways to improve the brain’s negative bias, and engender a positive mindset. In this respect I fully agree with Delilah’s suggestions, many of which I undertake daily:
Post here daily
Journal
Read and learn from recovery books
Exercise, especially getting outdoors for a walk
Mindfulness (lots of good apps and you tube videos)
Drinking is not an option
Plus, to compliment quitting drinking, there are ways to improve the brain’s negative bias, and engender a positive mindset. In this respect I fully agree with Delilah’s suggestions, many of which I undertake daily:
Post here daily
Journal
Read and learn from recovery books
Exercise, especially getting outdoors for a walk
Mindfulness (lots of good apps and you tube videos)
Drinking is not an option
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Join Date: Feb 2015
Location: MN
Posts: 8,704
I know you've struggled 6 string. Stay engaged, stay on this site. You'll eventually get this. Sometimes I think it just takes getting completely sick and tired of drinking and nothing could be worse. Not even sobriety. So we give that a try and we actually like it.
Thank you all for the support.
I did a 30 day rehab once and it lasted for 6 months. I have tried AA with little to no success. I am sure it could be me as to why AA is not working.
I drank last night so I hope to get through this day alcohol free.
I hate this *%$#@**%$ disease.
asixstringnut
I did a 30 day rehab once and it lasted for 6 months. I have tried AA with little to no success. I am sure it could be me as to why AA is not working.
I drank last night so I hope to get through this day alcohol free.
I hate this *%$#@**%$ disease.
asixstringnut
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when I stopped trying to stop and started to start instead, things changed for me.
Turning "I've GOT TO QUIT" into "I WANT SOBRIETY" was a turning point for my 'sick of myself' story.
Maybe that would help for you, too.
It seems like a small, subtle difference - but in actuality it's a tremendous change of perspective.
Turning "I've GOT TO QUIT" into "I WANT SOBRIETY" was a turning point for my 'sick of myself' story.
Maybe that would help for you, too.
It seems like a small, subtle difference - but in actuality it's a tremendous change of perspective.
Pop back on to the November thread, we can help.
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Join Date: Apr 2016
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Hi six,
I didn’t jive with AA either, though it’s helped many. Have you looked at AVRT/RR?? IMHO the HARDEST step to take are the first 10. Once you get some momentum going it becomes easier to put one foot in front of the other.
For now take it minute by minute, hour by hour or whatever it takes to get through JUST today!
I didn’t jive with AA either, though it’s helped many. Have you looked at AVRT/RR?? IMHO the HARDEST step to take are the first 10. Once you get some momentum going it becomes easier to put one foot in front of the other.
For now take it minute by minute, hour by hour or whatever it takes to get through JUST today!
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I too tried to quit more times than I can remember. I had given up hope as well and resigned myself to believing it was just the way I was built and that sobriety was only for other people.... but never for me.
I now know that was just another lie that my Addictive Voice told me. Your AV is telling you that same lie.
I now know that was just another lie that my Addictive Voice told me. Your AV is telling you that same lie.
I don’t know what to write here any longer. I have tried to quit and make it stick so many times
I no longer try to keep track. Most recent sober time was 29 days and I drank on December 1.
Now I can’t seem to find the off switch.
I am so ashamed to even post on here anymore. I should be able to do this. But I keep failing.
I am so sick of myself I can’t even describe the shame and disgust I feel for myself.
asixstringnut
I no longer try to keep track. Most recent sober time was 29 days and I drank on December 1.
Now I can’t seem to find the off switch.
I am so ashamed to even post on here anymore. I should be able to do this. But I keep failing.
I am so sick of myself I can’t even describe the shame and disgust I feel for myself.
asixstringnut
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Join Date: Jun 2017
Posts: 242
Hey six string: How are you?
I know how much "slipping" sucks because I've done it so often.
I keep coming back because I know I am worth it, I know I can eventually do this; I know alcohol is and will kill me and I know sobriety offers a full, joyous healthy long life full of fun and purpose. I just am having trouble figuring out how to access all of that!
Be well...
I know how much "slipping" sucks because I've done it so often.
I keep coming back because I know I am worth it, I know I can eventually do this; I know alcohol is and will kill me and I know sobriety offers a full, joyous healthy long life full of fun and purpose. I just am having trouble figuring out how to access all of that!
Be well...
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Shame won't help anything--sometimes it just takes not giving up.
Believe me, I've had plenty of relapses and still continue to fight this.
But, overall the sober-time is longer and better each try.
So don't feel bad--we really understand how hard it is.
Just keep posting and keep quitting
Believe me, I've had plenty of relapses and still continue to fight this.
But, overall the sober-time is longer and better each try.
So don't feel bad--we really understand how hard it is.
Just keep posting and keep quitting
Each time I've relapsed getting back to where I was in days was always easier and I believed I could do it cause I did it before.
So don't sell yourself short asixstringnut, 29-days is fantastic.. Many people struggle to get one-week... Keep trying and don't be scared to try a different tactics when you get the urge.. Eventually you'll figure it out. You'll post here instead of saying 'Im sick of myself' you'll say 'I am 1-year sober today!'
Whatever you do don't EVER give up trying to beat this!
Thank you for this thread sixstring. It's summed up exactly how I feel and everyone's posts have really helped me too. I get it. I've had 2 weeks, 7 weeks, 4 weeks then 2 weeks again sober. I only drink for a night then hate it, hate myself and try again. It sounds like some of us need multiple tries at making sobriety stick but we can do it. I've read your posts over the last few weeks. You can do this! Thank you again.
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