LoveForMe

I don't want just one drink. I want ten.

I'm not sad or mad and I feel good but... I want to get drunk.

I know I won't but I can't believe I actually just want to get drunk.

Here's to saying no to alcohol for the 179th day!

I must say, it DOES get easier!

Have a blessed day!

ScottFromWI

I'm glad you won't Kate! It's not uncommon at all to have those feelings though, just part of what makes us addicts I guess. Glad you are handling it well!

FreeOwl

If I felt like I wanted to get drunk, I'd definitely take that as an opportunity to spend some time journaling and talking to my spouse or counselor or sponsor about where I'm at in life and see if I couldn't work out what was underlying that desire.

For me, it would be an indication that I might have something to deepen with my sobriety.

At a minimum, it would be a call to reaffirm the goodness of sobriety in my life and to consciously give thanks for what sobriety brings me - which would lead me back to the place of NOT wanting to get drunk.

I'm glad you shared, I'm glad you're not going to drink, I'm glad you wrote it here instead of acting on it.

AnvilheadII

not at all surprising to have a little "flare up" at a milestone mark in recovery like 6 months. just let it pass, it will!!! and you will be so very glad you did!

ljc267

I had a feeling like that the other day. For some reason I wanted a beer. I just blew it off, but it was the first time in a long time.

btw, I've been sober over a year, so yeah it's normal to have those thoughts/feelings.

DreamCatcher17

I love how open and honest people can be!
I know that wasn't easy to put out to the rest of us, so thank you for sharing.

I am glad you know it will lead to a lot of nothing!!!


Keep up the great work!

Horn95

I go back and forth between craving scotch and sugar. But i’m Only on Day 4.

Nonsensical

I feel like running idiot drivers into the ditch.
I feel like making inappropriate suggestions to the hot chick.
I feel like throwing a stapler at my boss's head.
I feel like drinking.

Nothing special about that last feeling. Just another impulse that would lead me to ruin if acted upon.

Brains are weird.

179 days!?!?!

Dee74

Hope you feel a little better now Kateangel

to me it's not our thoughts that make a recovery - it's how we respond to them =- you're doing great

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LoveForMe

Thank you for all of your responses.

This website is the number one reason, I believe, I have been able to stay away from the bottle. It's the only new thing I have done. I wish I had found this site sooner!

I guess I miss the people from my old life... stupid thing is I KNOW I wouldn't be having fun with them sober. Maybe they wouldn't have fun with me either. Lol. My own best friend even said that now I don't drink or eat (good aka unhealthy lol), she doesn't know what to do with me. I know she didn't mean any harm...

Anyway, it 2pm here and still have a whole day ahead of me but it does feel so good to know that I can have a craving and that's all it has to be.

Thanks for reading,
Kate

dwtbd

Yep that's all it has to be , realizing that and being comfortable with that idea is the ticket.
It's comical what the AV, ours and friends', define as 'fun'. Keep truckin

JudicatorPanzer

Congratulations on 179 days Kate! I'm right behind you at 107 days! We got this even if we do get a thought it's just a thought not an action.

Laqbrador66

I like that!! If I acted on everyting I felt I'd be seriously fooked!!!!

andyh

^^ this. I always get "twitchy" around anniversaries. I'm a couple of weeks behind you, so I'm fully expecting it around 180 days/six months

hang in there, it will pass

wiscsober

I too at times feel and think like you do.

Sometimes I get an "F" it attitude.

Hang in there and so will I.