Jek1126

I’m very new here and to not drinking. I usually would only drink on the weekends but it would pretty much be every Friday night, Saturday night (sometimes even day) and even Sunday during the day at times. I made it through the holiday without even a sip of alcohol which I thought would be hard to do but for some reason today I am really struggling.

I have the worst anxiety and feel like if I had wine in front of me I would drink it.....and then drink all of it....and then feel awful about myself in the morning. But that doesn’t seem to be helping me. The fact that I don’t have any in the house seems to be the only thing stopping me.

This feeling is the worst.

Ghostlight1

I know that feeling well. But there's nothing a drink will make better.
Our mind might tell us different, but the truth is, for me anyway,
the regret, remorse and anxiety of the next day will only make me feel worse.
I think ahead of the ramifications of drinking, and it isn't pretty.

Welcome to this place. You'll find a lot of support here.
And congratulations on eight days, that's huge. Do you really want to start over?

nova84

Good job on 8 days Jek...Ive found guided meditations really helpful...even if it sounds like it's not your thing...try it you never know 💜 wishing you well on your recovery journey x

Jek1126

Thank you Ghostlight1. I needed to hear that right now. And you’re right, the anxiety I will feel tomorrow morning will always be worse than the anxiety I feel right now while trying not to drink. It’s like choosing the better anxiety..which sounds crazy but that’s what it is. So again...I thank you for your words.

Silverback4

Warm welcome and sorry to hear you are having a difficult day.
It will get better and you will feel better staying away from that first drink.

Keep posting and reading on here, it really helped me in the very early days to not pick up a drink.

Dee74

Hi and welcome Jek

yeah early recovery can be an anxious time - but it really does get better

support helps - stay with us

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Anna

I found that I was more vulnerable 'after' I had gotten through a tough day. The AV is very diabolical and you're doing great. There is a benefit to not having alcohol in the house, during those tough moments.

Hevyn

Jek - we're so glad to have you join us. You aren't alone - we all understand how you're feeling. Sharing thoughts here is what gave me the courage to get free of it. I never knew so many people had the same feelings & concerns. We're a family - lean on us as you go through this - it's going to get so much easier.

Jek1126

Thank you so much to all of you that have taken the time to respond. It means more than you know and helps me more than you realize...but then again, maybe you all do know. 🙏🏼

Pressmetilihurt

Congrats on your 8 days. You got this.

january161992

keep in mind ...

its the 1st drink that gets us drunk not the 20th

we cant get drunk without that 1st drink

our choice is between miserable unhappy drunken drinking and all the consequences

or

not taking 1 drink

God bless

hpdw

Hi , try and distract yourself , go for a walk ,do some jobs around the house , anything but focusing on how you feel . Yes I know how hard this sounds iv'e been there with that intense fear and never ending sense of doom . The good news is it gets better each day ,I promise .

Stronger2017

You’re doing great with 8 days. I find posting on SR helps a lot.

Hevyn

How's it going, Jek?

jwal616p

Just think how much better and easier life is when your not hung over or drunk all the time that's what keeps me going.