Day 11
 

I finally told my son today. I've been very reluctant. Guess I was afraid of stumbling and looking more like a failure. He said he was thrilled and very proud of me. I have to keep it that way!

Went to a Mexican restaurant last night and as soon as we walked in I saw it...........my fave drink to have when eating out........a margarita. Oh my how I wanted one!! (and to be honest I'm still thinking about it) For some reason I've thought more about drinking today than any other day.
BUT I didn't and I'm not going to.

I'm having Thanksgiving with non-drinkers - thank goodness! But next week will be the weekly neighborhood dinner. I've made excuses for not going the last two weeks. There are about six or so of us who get together for potluck once a week. These are people I also go to church with. They're fantastic people who I know really care about me. I know I probably haven't fooled anyone...especially after the last time I ate there and had to be "helped" home. It was very embarrassing.

Anyway, everyone has a small glass of wine or two. (of course I've already had a few to several before going). I'm feeling that I'm probably not ready to be in a situation where everyone is having a drink. Afraid it might be way too easy to have just that tiny glass of wine like everyone else is having.

So should I be honest and tell them why I don't feel that I can attend the dinners for awhile?






When life gets too hard to stand.............kneel.

Hi Isadora :)

Only you can decide if these are the kind of people, and you have the kind of relationship, where you can confide in them.

It does sound from what you say that they might be supportive but you can't untell someone you have a drinking problem, so think about it before you decide :)

D

Thanks Dee. I'm certain they would be supportive. My only fear is my fear of failure, to be honest.

Failure is not an option :)

Seriously...most of us stumble a time or two in the beginning but if we stay committed to recovery, we get there in the end :)

D

Welcome to the family. :grouphug: You don't have to be specific about what you tell others. You could simply say you're tired of drinking and want to give it up. :) That's the truth.

I hope our support can help you stay sober for good. :)