So far the toughest night yet
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Originally Posted by wanttoquit7 
Yeah, I failed. Friday night to Sunday night. I was soaked in rum. I failed myself. I screwed up everything. I let everyone down.
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Many of us faltered a time or two wanttoquit - doesn't mean the race is over 
Obviously tho you need a better action plan - perhaps more changes in your life, and more recovery support?
There are some good ideas here:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ery-plans.html (Psst...wanna know why I'm always recommending recovery plans?)
Obviously tho you need a better action plan - perhaps more changes in your life, and more recovery support?
There are some good ideas here:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ery-plans.html (Psst...wanna know why I'm always recommending recovery plans?)
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Yes, I didn't think about the weekend when I planned this. I let my guard down. I shud have at least taken a pause before I went to buy boose. Big mistake. I don't understand. Y is this so hard.
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If you're like me, you've indulged in drinking behaviours for a long time. A bottle was my universal go to tool for almost anything that ailed me, mentally or physically.
I don;t believe there's any way to change that behaviour that doesn't involve hard work and a little short term discomfort....but the effort and the discomfort are worth it
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I don;t believe there's any way to change that behaviour that doesn't involve hard work and a little short term discomfort....but the effort and the discomfort are worth it
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I started a drinking journal. As I sit here and look at it I see that in the past 21 days I was sober only for 8 days. This is just sad. Am I that pathetic. Am I that big of a looser. What's wrong with me.
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Hi,
I have been in your situation more times than I can count...and what has really shaken me up this time is that my weekend binders started going into the week, for the entire week! So, I can tell you from experience that the "weekend binders" can easily turn into full weeks from hell
Don't give up, let this be your last binder. I know the first week and weekend suck, but I also know that it gets much easier
Forgive yourself, and stand up strong, as this is the last time you have to go through this!! Love yourself more than you love the booze
I have been in your situation more times than I can count...and what has really shaken me up this time is that my weekend binders started going into the week, for the entire week! So, I can tell you from experience that the "weekend binders" can easily turn into full weeks from hell
Don't give up, let this be your last binder. I know the first week and weekend suck, but I also know that it gets much easier
Forgive yourself, and stand up strong, as this is the last time you have to go through this!! Love yourself more than you love the booze
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I did a drinking journal over the summer, counting my units, trying to moderate. In the end I just found it exhausting & demoralising. It was simpler just to tell my mind, "no, I will not be drinking today". However while doing the journal I was gradually building my hobbies back up & getting out the house doing sober things. I'm not a big pub person which helps. The key for me is finding other things to do, but still within my comfort zone as I build on my sober time.
Be kind to yourself, kelp trying, make a plan.
Be kind to yourself, kelp trying, make a plan.
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Thank u folks. I start my day 1 today. I pray to god that I can continue my sober journey from now without anymore mess ups. I know all the techniques and tools. I just have no more excuses for myself. Pray that I can make it this time.
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Originally Posted by oldwriter
I'm only going into my third night sober, so I'm still working on a plan.
One thing I noticed is that my cravings are tied to my ideations (what I'm thinking about) and triggers. For instance, it's Friday night and even on other occasions if I had been sober during the week, I just had to drink on Friday and Saturday night to "relax" after a hard work week.
I guess that combines a trigger and an ideation. Really, if I focus my thoughts on something else, the cravings decrease considerably (that's part of why I'm posting here right now).
It was a mother bear earlier today driving home from work and realizing I still wanted to buy some booze, even though I know it is 100% bad for me and will destroy my health and my life.
It got better when I got home and better still when the missus got back from her walk, so I could focus on other things.
I don't know what landmines are lying in wait for me out there, but right now all I've got to focus on is what I'll do tonight. Since the window for buying booze has now closed for the evening and I'm starting to feel sleepy naturally, that makes night three that I'll be sober.
One thing I noticed is that my cravings are tied to my ideations (what I'm thinking about) and triggers. For instance, it's Friday night and even on other occasions if I had been sober during the week, I just had to drink on Friday and Saturday night to "relax" after a hard work week.
I guess that combines a trigger and an ideation. Really, if I focus my thoughts on something else, the cravings decrease considerably (that's part of why I'm posting here right now).
It was a mother bear earlier today driving home from work and realizing I still wanted to buy some booze, even though I know it is 100% bad for me and will destroy my health and my life.
It got better when I got home and better still when the missus got back from her walk, so I could focus on other things.
I don't know what landmines are lying in wait for me out there, but right now all I've got to focus on is what I'll do tonight. Since the window for buying booze has now closed for the evening and I'm starting to feel sleepy naturally, that makes night three that I'll be sober.
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Originally Posted by wanttoquit7
I started a drinking journal. As I sit here and look at it I see that in the past 21 days I was sober only for 8 days. This is just sad. Am I that pathetic. Am I that big of a looser. What's wrong with me.
Use that energy in a positive way and make a plan to stay sober
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