jessicano1

Hi I'm a full time Mum and i do some publish work from home. I feel so lost at times and my husband isn't a drinker. And i don't drink in his company he takes our older to up 2 bed every night and falls asleep so I know I can drink when he's away to bed 😐I don't drink to get drunk but I feel I need it so I know I have a problem .
I have a baby at 5months and I'm the person she should look up to but the min I know she's settleled for the night I start on vodka hate writing this as I'm disgusted with myself every 2nd night I can drink a half bottle. went through alot of **** when I was 15 and have had anxiety since then I can't leave my house myself as I panic. I just feel so lost now and don't want my kids who are lovely to be set back in life threw me there Daddy is one amazing guy. im terrified i will lose him. I need help asap but can't go anywhere myself and my husband works full time and can't afford for him to take time off work .I sound so selfish apart from drinking at night I am a great mum but I know I can be better don't ever want my kids to experience me as a drunk mum would appreciate any help❤ x

Dee74

Hi and welcome Jessicano

You'll find a lot of support here - I'm sure a lot of us can identify with your situation.

If you feel you can't take time off and you can't go anywhere - see how logging into this site and posting daily or even several times a day goes for you.

Support can really make a difference

If you're worried about withdrawal tho, I think you might have to break cover and see a Dr?

D

least

Welcome to the family! Why not try posting in the November class in Newcomers forum? It's a good way to get support from those in the same situation you're in.

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...17-pt-1-a.html

There's also the 24 hour connection thread in Daily Support forum. Post there once a day to recommit to sobriety.

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...art-314-a.html (24 Hour Recovery Connection Part 314)

Ghostlight1

Hello and welcome. Since you have trouble leaving the house, you've found a great place for support here.
Wish I had some great words of wisdom to help, but I don't except don't take that first drink.
Thinking of you and sending you good thoughts.
Best to you and hope to hear more from you.

jessicano1

Thank you really apriecate your replys ❤

jessicano1

❤❤

jessicano1

Will do thank you xx

FLCamper

Jessicano, as Dee said, coming here a few times a day is very helpful. You are not alone in this.
If you don't leave the house, how are you getting vodka? I'm guessing here that your husband gets it for you. Can you talk with him and enlist his help?

bradly22

It's because it feels abnormal to go a day without drinking.

Dee74

...but it can very quickly become the new normal,

D

freshstart57

You CAN do it, jessicano1. There is some stuff to go through first, I know it, but you can do it. You can make it a long contested battle if you wish, but you can do it another way too. That way is YOUR way.

Decide how you are going to make this death defying change in your life, and make it a choice to demand more by removing alcohol from your life. Your brain will try to tell you it can't be done, but you know it can. People quit drinking every day, and you can choose to be one of them.

The life you deserve, the one without any more alcohol, ever, is waiting for you. Demand it, and let nothing stop you, no matter what.

I believe in you, jessicano1.

Hawkeye13

I found the alcohol was actually causing much of my anxiety and wanting to
stay at home and not engage.

If you can get some sober time, and support, you might find the anxiety,
guilt, pain fade away very quickly and you will feel much better.

Does your spouse know how much you are drinking and what's going on
emotionally for you? Coming clean and getting his support might be
your first step.

I felt so much better two weeks out from quitting I couldn't believe
how much of the anxiety, guilt, and fear were simply due to the daily addiction.