Relapse after 8.5 months sober
 

So I had my second relapse but this one was full blown Valium panadine forte and all alcohol till black out😫 everything got too much and my fighting voice of reason said stuff it and disappeared. I woke up in hospital with a dvo against me and a court date for my dad cause he tried to knock me out and threw me in the bedroom and I smashed a window to get out and due to my x cop bf he’s trashed my name so I got done but didn’t break my probation so I’m very relieved. I’ve been vomiting again but stopped Monday and my back is still aching from the fall and I’m that sick I can’t swallow but being very cautioned by my pain killers so I don’t fall into the trap. So disappointed don’t want to drink but pain killers are needed and finding it tough and the weight gain but going to the gym. Meetings booked and I have money stress as I have vaginismus which is causing relationship strain