5 months sober!!
Loving Sobriety
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Join Date: May 2017
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5 months sober!!
I'm 5 months sober . I feel great now. My brain fog has cleared for the most part and cravings are way down. I stil think about wine a lot but I can control the thoughts. But I'm still scared I will mess up and have a drink. Does the fear and residue guilt over past behaviors ever go away? I go to AA and read a lot. And this site has been a life saver. Life is amazing sober! Love being sober but still scared. Xx
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Congrats on 5 months Gemini.
At some point I realised nothing or no one could make me drink again if I didn't want to.
Without my hand to raise the glass to my lips, it's never going to happen again
I spent a lot of time building a new life, one that I built as a sober guy and I was prepared to fight for.
I also did a lot of service work to try and make up for the years I'd simply been a taker.
Eventually today becomes more important than yesterday ever was,
I hope you'll find that too Gemini
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At some point I realised nothing or no one could make me drink again if I didn't want to.
Without my hand to raise the glass to my lips, it's never going to happen again
I spent a lot of time building a new life, one that I built as a sober guy and I was prepared to fight for.
I also did a lot of service work to try and make up for the years I'd simply been a taker.
Eventually today becomes more important than yesterday ever was,
I hope you'll find that too Gemini
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Join Date: Jun 2017
Posts: 1,276
Well done Gemini👍 I can’t offer much advice about your fears at five months as I’m only a couple of months into sobriety, but I think it’s good you still recognize the problem. Also, for me, I make the decision to drink and that gives me tremendous power over my fear of drinking again.
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Join Date: Dec 2014
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I still have some anger/resentment towards myself for past actions I'm not proud of,but I'm no longer drinking over that feeling. I've made amends where I could and will continue to do that when I can. To be honest a lot of my drunken actions I don't remember,but that's doesn't excuse it.
Yes, it gets easier and the thoughts of drinking will fade til they're nothing but a whisper and easily dismissed. 
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Join Date: Jan 2012
Location: United Kingdom
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Wow. 5 months is amazing and inspiring for myself to see that its possible. Struggling with the guilt of past actions I'm sure is something we all feel. If you've made amends and are trying to improve yourself I'd hope these feelings will fade eventually.
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Join Date: Oct 2017
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Nicey nice 5 months. I think after a few more months you will notice a clearer distinction between your view of your current self (positive and balanced) and your opinion of the you that did silly things in the past. The old self looks like (and was) a chemically altered satire. Maybe that is the clown that everyone thinks you still are, but hey, who needs everyone?
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