Cuckoo

Drank last night and drinking tonight.
I am so ashamed and embarrassed that I dont even feel that I can post any more words.
Pathetic is about as much as I can muster.
Sorry guys, I am a failure and dont want you to waste your precious time on me any more.
Thats it, all I can say at the moment

C

Flinders39

Can you pour the rest of your booze down the sink? I know that's probably asking the impossible at this point, but you'll most likely thank yourself in the morning. Everyone is here for you.

columbus

"dont want you to waste your precious time on me any more."

But that's why we're here.

Having all been THERE.

anxiousrock

I can relate so closely to this.
It is sad but it happens.

Dee74

Hi Cuckoo

AA has a saying I've adopted - we don't shoot our wounded.

I tried to stop for 15 years.

I finally did because I decided to do something different.

I stopped hedging my bets where what I really wanted to do was to magically become a normal drinker.

Once I accepted that was impossible for me, the real recovery started

You are welcoem here drinking or not, and you are very much worth the effort.

don't let your addiction drive you away from help and support

D

Anna

Hi Cuckoo,

This is time to dig deep and hold on. Pour out the alcohol you have and start again right now. Many of us have tried multiple times to stop drinking. You must not give up because this disease is relentless.

SaturatedSeize

Cuckoo......

Pour it out and join me in no alcohol tonight. I'm struggling a lot tonight, I want to drink so bad. You aren't alone. Part of me doesn't even care about the aftermath. I'm being short with my daughter and I know a drink will take the edge off.

I just fired up my PS4 to play a game, I put my daughter in my room to watch Netflix in a safe environment, and now I'm here. Commit with me for tonight.

Rubaduck

Hello and welcome.

Your join date seems to be August 2017. Guess when I started seriously trying to quit? But I know SR wouldn't give up on me if I'd been trying for 50 years.

Anyway, I'm Day 1 today and going to give it a good effort again. Want to join me?

Good luck.

SaturatedSeize

Cuckoo,

How are you doing today?

hpdw

Lots of supporting replies which I add to . I tried several times too and this time nearly at 3 months . Not once was I turned away from SR all I was offered was support and wisdom. Be aware that right now your thinking is distorted and your not yourself so please don't think your a failure , were all here for you .

MeSoSober

You don't fail until you give up.

I really like Anne Fletcher's book Sober for Good. One important thing I took away from it was the advice from what she called the "masters" (those with five or more years of sobriety) who consistently told her that when you're trying to stay sober, the most important thing is to never, never, never give up.

So . . . don't!

bigsombrero

In the end, that's the key to the whole sobriety thing, isn't it? Trusting yourself. It's almost like we become two people: Mr. Recovery and Dr. Alcoholic. The trick is to stop listening to Dr. Alcoholic, and just be Mr. Recovery 100% of the time.

It's not easy, but you have to quit giving in to the monster. Just do the right thing. And then do it again. It takes a while but once you get in the groove you'll be walking on air.

Cuckoo

Thank you everyone for your positive and kind posts.
I apologise for 'throwing my toys out of the pram' last night !!
I did stop drinking last night and actually when I calmed down, I realised that I really hadnt imbibed too much.
I need to get myself a more proactive plan and keep the faith.
I dont know what made me start with it on Friday evening. It came out of no where.
As the great Arnie said.....I'll be back.
C