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Old 10-20-2017, 03:43 PM
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My day
My mom whispered at my door this morning "you are evil"
Then my friend committed suicide.
I drank.
I'm freaking out.
Not a good day.
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Old 10-20-2017, 03:44 PM
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I hate this!
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Old 10-20-2017, 03:45 PM
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Old 10-20-2017, 03:47 PM
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waxfruit, put down the drink. It's just going to make everything worse.

I am so sorry about your friend's suicide...there are no words to make that better, but don't let his/her tragic end be a reason to hurt yourself.

Your mom? I won't even go there.

Please just pour out whatever alcohol you have left and drink some water, get something to eat and go to bed. Lock your door and leave a radio on.

I'm so sorry. You're not alone and we care about you.
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Old 10-20-2017, 03:51 PM
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Wax, so sorry about your friend and for what your mom said. Please just know im sending positive thoughts your way ASAP.
Like bimini said, please dont drink anymore.
Youll get through this!
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Old 10-20-2017, 03:52 PM
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I tried everything. We spoke for an hour and he did it.
I am beside myself. I am in so much pain
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Old 10-20-2017, 03:52 PM
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Old 10-20-2017, 04:04 PM
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I was the one who overdosed and ran into a brick building two years ago. He loved me. My dear friend. Did not have a substance problem. He was such a special man.
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Old 10-20-2017, 04:16 PM
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Originally Posted by BrightenMeUp View Post
For the first time in my adult life I wish I could just bypass the weekends and get to Monday. This Friday night stuff is tough. Every minute is a struggle..
Get a good movie, popcorn, diet root beer. Wake up in the morning sober and feeling good. Good to know you are still here and working on "it". Keep the strength!
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Old 10-20-2017, 04:24 PM
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Wax - Sorry to hear about your friend. Do your best and empty the bottle and do not drink. I am also sending positive thoughts your way. The chat room is here....join in if you need to talk about this now. LuLu
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Old 10-20-2017, 04:26 PM
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Hey waxfruit -- just sending you hugs. I know it's not okay right now but it will be. Stay close.
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Old 10-20-2017, 04:27 PM
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Old 10-20-2017, 04:54 PM
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I'm really,sorry for your loss waxfruit - and for what your mom said.

Please don;t use this is an opportunity to beat yourself and get lost again.

It's obvious your friend was in real pain.

I'm sure the last thing they would want would be for you to get lost as well.

There are some really good thoughts on guilt and loss here
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...y-what-if.html (Guilt ... If Only ... What if ...??)

I tried filling the gnawing chasm of pain in me with booze too - it never works.

It just kept me in a holding pattern - I'd numb the pain but never allow it the chance to heal.

I know it hurts but you're not alone - let us help waxfruit.

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Old 10-20-2017, 04:56 PM
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Welcome back Vipe and welcome LoveHateWhine

Stay strong Horatio - and anyone else strugglign this weekend - make different choices this time - take a road untravelled.

Its worth it

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Old 10-20-2017, 05:16 PM
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All these years. All the abuse. All the heart ache. I don't know how I do it.
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Old 10-20-2017, 05:20 PM
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All these years. All the abuse. All the heart ache. I don't know how I do it.
Even if you dont feel it right now in this really rough time, you're obviously very strong!! That is how you do it. Here for ya !!
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Old 10-20-2017, 05:31 PM
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Rip my friend.
I'll be okay....
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Old 10-20-2017, 05:31 PM
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I'm so sorry to read about what happened, Wax. I'm not really sure what to say exactly because I've been there too many years ago and know how complicated and devastating the feelings are. So I'll just say my thoughts are with you, and you have friends in this forum.
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