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Old 10-24-2017, 12:44 PM
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Hi all, still sober, still finding it easy. But then haven't been doing too much either.
Usually during my non- drinking efforts, after the first struggling day, I never seem to have difficult moments where I struggle to stay afloat. What normally happens is that I feel great being sober, can't see the point of drinking and then one day I start drinking again with minimal resistance.
That's not a prediction of what will happen this time though because I really do feel certain that this time I've stopped permanently. It's like the Invasion of the Bodysnatchers. But I shouldn't keep going on, after all it's only 17 days.
Best wishes and hope you can stay out of harms way.
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Old 10-24-2017, 01:59 PM
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Day 0/1 here and joining the October class. I have a plan and will stay committed this time!
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Old 10-24-2017, 02:10 PM
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Just wanted to post tonight as I've never posted on SR (it keeps telling me). Day 9 and god knows I really value these 9 days more than anything. I've been following this thread and really feeling you all in this... I'm trying to keep strong myself and make plans as I haven't done in past - made 5 months before but made no plans or anything. Rookie mistake!!
Keep strong folks
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Old 10-24-2017, 02:29 PM
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Day 20 here, bit of a rough one, can't seem to keep any food down. Going to go home and try to get some soup in me then just hit the sack. Only good thing about feeling sick is the idea of alcohol is absolutely abhorrent to me right now.
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Old 10-24-2017, 02:35 PM
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Evening all...
22:35 here in England.

Day 13 - Apologies in advance for a rather negative post. I've been feeling better than ever in myself apart from some tiredness and a little to be expected anxiety, alls been going pretty good but tonight I've hit a hurdle, I'll deal with it just find letting it out on here is better than picking up a drink...

My ex who I split with at the exact same time I quit the drink, 11th October, which was tough, came round this evening to collect two items he had left at my place. Anyway I let my guard down really and let him stay for coffee and a friendly chat, I'd much rather be civil and part on friendship terms but I'm being careful as he wants us to be back together and I know there's no way that can happen, anyway he sat and talked and after he has gone I've just found out I've been lied to quite badly, I won't bore you all with all the details but to have him sit in-front of me saying one thing then to find out it's all lies has really cut deep, usually a large glass of wine would be my remedy right about now...
The only one thing that makes it a bit easier is that he only seems to do these things when he's drank and I know how different I can act when I'm on the drink, so this gives me some relief that it's his illness rather than a lack of respect for me...

I hate posting such negative drama, prefer to be all smiles and positivity but I guess if I don't release this somehow I know I'll go and drink...

I can be a tough cookie when need to be but I can't stand being lied to

Hope everyone else is doing ok.

Sorry for having a moan! lol.

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Old 10-24-2017, 02:37 PM
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Hello Group-

I just finished reading every ones posts and I thank you for your support.
I'm a little overwhelmed so please don't take it personally if I don't mention anyone's names. I can hear the hope, strength, anxiety, convictions, fear, and love.
It's all life. Life is hectic. It can be, that's for sure.

And I so relate to feeling like I was going to have a heart attack. I'm pretty sure I had a seizure early on.... please, whoever wrote that, get medical attention. I hate to give advice like that, it's scary, but it is a reality of this disease and detox.
I hope it's not against rules to suggest medical attention.
Hope all is well and it does get better. (Again- sorry I didn't mention a name. Its hard for me to focus right now)

So- These past two days have weighed heavy on me. I didn't have the courage to check on my favorite dog today. Not sure he was there, if you know what I'm trying to say? :'( He was a bait dog that we tried to rehabilitate. The cutest man dog you ever saw. It's a shame and you can imagine my frustration, sadness, and anger, not at the shelter but at people. At least I get a chance to give love and dignity to these animals. I feel good about that.

Other than that... we also have an alert and cannot drink the water out of faucet as it is contaminated. Just another day, I guess.... whaaaat?!!!

On the bright side, the city asked for my High School Diploma to get my application process going and I almost had a panic attack. Low and behold, what are the odds that the first box I dig into in my parents basement had it in there? I guess pretty damn good! :-)

There's actually been quite a few "lucky" incidents since I've been here.

I'll check in again later and have a good evening everyone!
Happy to be a part of such a group of people!

Day4 ? and rocking it out!
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Old 10-24-2017, 02:42 PM
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WelcomeTaplow, Vladwatt and Karamazov- glad you found us!

Good job on 20 days rmeat!! sorry you are not feeling well, soup, a good book and a comforter cures everything!!

LuLu- moving! how exciting! I look at it as a way to purge everything, materialistic and mental baggage.

Waxfruit- I really admire you so much, I volunteered for one whole day at our local shelter, couldn't take it. It truly takes a special person, a strong person. the animal world needs more people like you!

I trashed my kitchen again, not as bad as yesterdays baking frenzy, but I made a crock pot of beef stew, with corn bread to follow. The garage has also caught my eye and is also in need of attention,,,so much to do.

I am starting to realize now, how I wasted my days off before, one day drinking, the next hung over, wiped out, and still drinking. Than trying to act sober when husband came home. Not the best way for me to live a life.

Will stop back in later,,, did we ever come with a name for our class?

Stay positive all

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Old 10-24-2017, 02:54 PM
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I want to come over for dinner! Beef stew and cornbread- Yum!!!

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Old 10-24-2017, 03:05 PM
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Just came from lawyer's office. The court part sounds like it may be ok - I already spent a night in jail, DMV - I will have to have an ignition interlock system for almost a year if all goes ok. Otherwise I have to go to some classes - not sure about how many yet, left a message with the center. And this isn't set in stone yet but what the lawyer said would probably happen. I am terrified if it happens to be in the newspaper, I will lose my job. I am ... I don't know how I am. It all seems like it is not real and then in the next minute I am having panic attacks. I had finally got to a better place in my life and blew it.
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Old 10-24-2017, 03:19 PM
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Hello SoulShine8 - greetings. I will be meeting with an attorney tomorrow. I understand everything you said about losing job and in the paper. I've already had a friend who saw my mug shot online reach out to me. Job already knows as i'm now being dropped off and picked up. I too had finally got to a better place but couldn't see it and now I've blown it too. I'm trying to view this as my last chance to get sober and i have to do it cause i really do want to live - and what i've been doing hasn't been living. Best wishes.
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Old 10-24-2017, 03:35 PM
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Originally Posted by badgerden View Post
WelcomeTaplow, Vladwatt and Karamazov- glad you found us!

Good job on 20 days rmeat!! sorry you are not feeling well, soup, a good book and a comforter cures everything!!

LuLu- moving! how exciting! I look at it as a way to purge everything, materialistic and mental baggage.

Waxfruit- I really admire you so much, I volunteered for one whole day at our local shelter, couldn't take it. It truly takes a special person, a strong person. the animal world needs more people like you!

I trashed my kitchen again, not as bad as yesterdays baking frenzy, but I made a crock pot of beef stew, with corn bread to follow. The garage has also caught my eye and is also in need of attention,,,so much to do.

I am starting to realize now, how I wasted my days off before, one day drinking, the next hung over, wiped out, and still drinking. Than trying to act sober when husband came home. Not the best way for me to live a life.

Will stop back in later,,, did we ever come with a name for our class?

Stay positive all

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Old 10-24-2017, 03:36 PM
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Kit- not sure how I missed your post, wow, your not being dramatic or a "moan". You get full credit for not picking up that glass. Please do not worry about sharing, its what we are here for.

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Old 10-24-2017, 03:37 PM
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Checking in. Looks like a lot of stressful situations going around for many of us here.

A good Wednesday would be very nice. Fingers crossed only good luck and good people come my way.
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Old 10-24-2017, 03:40 PM
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Originally Posted by SoulShine8 View Post
I had finally got to a better place in my life and blew it.
I hope things turn out ok and you don't lose your job.
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[QUOTE=Rubaduck;6648786]Checking in. Looks like a lot of stressful situations going around for many of us here.

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I was just going to say the same thing. Great bunch and I'm glad to be here with everyone...

Have a great evening, afternoon, day....
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I've already had a friend who saw my mug shot online reach out to me.
I've been online trying to get a friend's mugshot off the findmugshots.com website. There is a way to do it for free....and I'll let you know if and when it works.
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Old 10-24-2017, 04:00 PM
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There is a lot on the line with losing my job. My workplace would not be sympathetic. I am looking up the ignition interlock system on the internet and don't know how I am going to keep people from finding out with the camera and everything. I am freaking out right now. I know everyone is going to say that I need to be truthful but I cannot lose my job. I have let everyone down including myself. I have no illusions about my future and drinking. I don't drink period. I am done. If I do I am going to go to jail for a long time or prison or die. And I have to find a way to know that every single minute of the rest of my life. I understand when you say that you haven't been living ready45. I haven't been living either. Even though I just transferred to another job that I like a lot better I was still getting up every day, going to work, coming home, going to bed and getting up again and again... and wondering a lot of the time each morning is this all there is to my life. And can I handle doing it over and over again tomorrow and the next day and the next and all of sudden I will be elderly, and looking back on it. Alone. I just wish I could go back and do any of it over. I've made so many mistakes. Sorry this is just hitting me more and more. How stupid I am.
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Old 10-24-2017, 04:06 PM
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Thank you Lulu. I hope so too. I have so much to give in that job. I always try to excel and do more than is expected. I took having it for granted. Now I just to keep it.
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Old 10-24-2017, 04:08 PM
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welcome vladwatt and Karamazov

feel better soon rmeatgt350

I hope everything will turn out for the best soulshine - I kn ow it's scary but you have people pulling for you here

Good luck with the application waxfruit

If he's lied to you, it's good he's an ex, Kit?

my best wishes to everyone dealing with hard stuff at the moment.

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Hey class of October 2017. I'm dissappointed to tell you that I'm starting over. I couldn't take the tension with my wife anymore. I love this class, Can I still be a member? This class has gotten me closer to getting past this than anything else. I had vodka and told my wife I was sorry for being such an ass lately. How do I get past that? She knew, but didn't say anything. Our generation? Class, I was just starting to get close to you. Will you have me back after this?
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