Chilledice

In three hours it will be Friday 13th.....stupid of me I know but im messing my pants.

Skyping with my therapist in half an hour!

aasharon90

Think positive, remain calm, sober, strong
and lean on those who can guide you and
carry you with each passin day.

Chilledice

I'm sober, dreading my therapy session tho, just don't feel up to it.

aasharon90

Why are you dreading to talk to your
therapist? Are you afraid of hearing
something you don't want to hear?

Chilledice

No it's not that, im fighting panic and I don't want him to see me having a panic attack, embarrassing for me.

stephengb

You don't pay him for you to hide what you feel.

Chilledice

Good point.

aasharon90

Being honest about what you are feeling
allows them to better understand you.

So many times we go thru life covering
up how we really feel or share what is
bothering us and we keep all this "stuff"
baggage, heavy crosses weighing heavy
on our shoulders when we don't have to.

Having someone point out some of these
faults we have in us may be a blessing because
there were lots going on with me, bothering
me and I really didn't understand why
until they pointed it out to me.

Once they did and I had time to think
about it then a light bulb went off like
an ah ha moment.

Theraphist are trained physicians that
know what to listen for and can see it
which is good because many times we
don't hear or see it ourselves.

Remain openminded and honest
and be willing to work with your
doctor as they provide you with
options, suggestions to get thru
tomorrow.

Anna

Chilledice, your therapist will be able to help you through the panic attack. Hang in there. And, you can always come here and post.

Chilledice

Just finished my hour skype session, it was good, he's given me some tools to last the 24 hours.

aasharon90

Yah..!!!!! You see...you did it
and now you have more strength,
wisdom and another successful
experience with your theraphist. Right?

Chilledice

Right

Im SO sorry, every time it's the 13th I come here and moan like a childish baby.

Very embarrassing.

aasharon90

Each challenge you face is a growing
experience and before you know it
you will become more stronger and
more mature in heart mind and soul.

Having a little childlike inside you
is not a bad thing either.

Keep up the good work.

Dee74

I'm glad the session went well Chilled

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Chilledice

Thanks Dee I've been instructed to self sooth and contain, my therapist was EXCITED for me that it was Friday 13th lol said it was a great opportunity to put my cbt skills into practice.

MythOfSisyphus

Hang in there, soon it will be the 14th!

hpdw

Don't fight panic ,let it do what it does especially with your therapist present , this will give him a better picture of how to help you .Please try to not feel embarrassed for feeling dreadful ,he will understand .

I used to go to my GP with various ailments and was ashamed to admit how much I was drinking , this wasn't helping me or him so eventually I came clean and put the cards on the table . He was then able to reassess my case based on this new information and treat me accordingly .

Good luck

Mountainmanbob

Actually, I had a terrible thing happen to me on Friday the 13th many, many years ago. My wife was killed in a car accident. I have always thought of it as just a coincidence, for people die each and every day.

Plus, my religion takes no special note of this day.

Mountainmanbob

Chilledice

Oh gosh MB im so sorry my friend

SaturatedSeize

What's embarrassing about posting here about a tough time? We all do it, that's the point. Hard to get support if you aren't honest about what you are struggling with.

Nobody thinks you are "moaning like a childish baby." Ignoring your concerns and setting yourself up for failure seems more childish to me.

Glad you posted, and glad it went well for you!