Don't even know where to begin
 

Hello SR, it's been a while. My drinking has been out of control again and for a while . I thought I had made it....but I was only fooling myself. It seems every time I quit, it gets considerably worse than before.

I had abandoned SR and my sobriety
Even as much as I hate it, maybe this is just truly who I am....alcoholic.....

Hi Charlie. Welcome back🙂 I’ve had to face up to that too. I’m an alcoholic and I just can’t drink. As you know SR is really helpful for staying sober so you should try to stick around. You can do this.

Right there with you Charlie! This is really hard. I had 9 months clean, then 2 months and now I am preparing to go back into inpatient treatment because I 'fell' again.
Don't ever quit trying to quit!
One day it will stick!

Hi Charlie :)
Yeah I'm an alcoholic too - but I'm much more than that as well.

Recovery is about finding out all the other things I am - I'm glad you've decided to try again - and maybe find out for yourself too :)

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I'm glad you're back too Poppy.

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Hi Charlie. Alcoholics do recover you know, if they do what it takes.

Hey Charlie, so glad to see you back buddy. We joined right about the same time, didn't we? You can do this, you can get back at it. It is hard, each time we fall it is so difficult, but possible. I am a few weeks out of a relapse myself but more determined than ever to make this work this time. I like the comment you left to me on my visitor page about looking at the glass half full- you are back and ready to try, that is definitely a positive thing.

yep... that's how it works.

where to begin?

Begin with a CHOICE - choose to embrace sobriety with all your heart.

Follow with ACTION - small, simple, daily actions that support the choice.

That's all there is to it. Don't over-do it.

Simple. Consistent. Committed.

:grouphug:

Hello Mera, great to hear from you. We did join about the same time. I relied heavily on you, "Hearts" and many, many others on SR to help and get me through. I was doing better than I ever had and thought I could handle it....but as I all ready knew I was dead wrong. Insanity....Doing the same thing and expecting a different result....

I'm glad you are back :) I suggest reading some of the posts/articles about "kindling". It helped this alcoholic understand what was happening. Alcoholism is progressive for sure.

Glad your back Charlie,
I can relate to your comment of it getting worse and worse each time. My last 6 months before coming on SR, I was trying harder than ever to stay stopped and each time I drank, I sank deeper and deeper into the gates of hell. Each time it became harder and harder to recover and get back up. The guilt , shame and remorse became stronger.
Pain... Pain was the great motivator for me. It brought me to my knees to the point of wanting to put a bullet in my head. So..... I decided to get help and went back to AA and joined SR. At 45 days sober, life is getting better day by day.

Welcome back. You know from reading these boards previously that you don't have to live this way, the addiction can be overcome. We understand the frustration you are feeling though, we have all been there. Coming back here is a big first step.