It's been a while :) Day 71
 

Hey everyone! I haven't posted in long time. I'm happy to say I am still on the sober bus and happy to be here.

Things had been going very well until 4 days ago. I had a random panic attack that floored me. I mean full blown panic that lasted hours, it was terrible. In the days following I woke up immediately anxious; heart pounding, headache, nausea, the whole bit. Today, thankfully, I didn't wake up feeling that way. I'm still struggling to eat since that day and in the back of my mind are the "thoughts" I struggle with. I'm trying though.

I decided to log on here because it had been a while and I'm really glad I did. I'm reminded that I'm still in early recovery even though I felt like it had been ages already and I had it all under control. I am frustrated and slightly discouraged, I'll admit. I thought that the worst was over and it was just about learning and growing from here on out, but I was wrong. I'm going to keep going though. It's a journey, not a destination, right? :)

Good to see you post, Jezzi. I'm still matching you with 71 days.

Jezzi, panic attacks are awful and very upsetting. I'm glad you got through that. It's good that you came back here. We do understand!

wooo! :You_Rock_

Whilst I've not had panic attacks recently, Jezzi, I know exactly how they feel so empathise. I have been feeling nervy when I wake in the morning, like I don't know if I can face the day. But it soon goes when I get up. As you say, we are both still relatively early days in recovery so have to take a day at a time still.

I'm so glad you are still going strong.