TiredandLost

I have been sober for three days. I have been drinking since I was a teenager, but not like this. I can't even pinpoint when it became something I had to do. In my 20's it was to feel comfortable in social situations. Now in my 30's it is to feel comfortable physically and emotionally. I was, and am, seriously getting scared for my health. It's always "I will quit when.. or after ." I suffer in silence hiding the heavy drinking and drinking lightly around my husband and friends. I feel like my whole life is a lie in many ways. I want to feel proud as a mother, not guilty because I'm always hungover and don't feel like playing or am short tempered. This is heart breaking for me as I love my family so much.
I just want it to last this time. I need to work on myself in so many ways it is overwhelming.

Soberwolf

Welcome & don't worry there is lots of useful information here to help with people who have been where you are now

I promise it's a better life not drinking

Strawberry18

Hi I'm on day 5 . Mother of 3 young kids and want to change for them. Are you having any withdrawal ? I'm still tired . Snappy and very anxious ... I was drinking alone and hiding it... Only drinking the odd glass in ground I anyone . So I'm battling all this on my own and very scared. I'm scared of what I have done to my liver . But to scared to go to the doctor .

Sunflowerlife

Hi there- I am a mother of 2 little boys 6 and under so I now that guilt all too well.
You are here and that is what matters. I have been using SR since January of 2016 and can proudly say I am now 5 months sober. You CAN do this. Figure out a plan and stick with it. If you need more support you can find meetings or even a therapist to help you. You don't have to do this alone! Please post as often as you need to. There were times I was tempted to drink and I posted here first and was talked out of it. It has been a lifesaver.
Wishing you well and hope to see you on the 24 hour thread!

Mish

You've come to the right place Tiredandlost. I know the guilt you mentioned all to well. Stick close to SR. We are all in this together and you will find so much support here. xxx

TiredandLost

Thank you for the response..day for now yes, I am still tired. Most of my withdrawals were shaking, sweating, insomnia, agitation and I know my blood pressure was high but not super dangerous because I was at the doctor for something unrelated and they took it. They didn't seem overly concerned, however, the person in me who hides everything told her I was nervous. I guess that is true too:/
I'm staying busy. My oldest turned 16 yesterday and is getting ready for a school dance next weekend. Today she has a orchestra concert so busy helps a lot. I also have a three yr old. Enough said. There have still been plenty of moments of thinking about it but not wanting to drink.
I am looking into a program..maybe not AA. Hasn't been for me in the past. Maybe I wasn't ready. Therapy for sure though.
It is good to have support on here thanks

Dee74

Welcome tiredandlost and to you too Loui

SR helped me to turn my life around - I know we can help you do the same

Support is vital - and there's a ton of it here...so if you need help just ask for it

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