Trying to power through day 13
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Your day one doesn't sound like a picnic blueberry
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...s-intense.html (First post - The cravings are intense)
Fight the feelings and remember the reality
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https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...s-intense.html (First post - The cravings are intense)
Fight the feelings and remember the reality
D
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I'm embarrassed to say that I caved and drank. Then spent yesterday (Day 1) miserable and sick. I'm still feeling the effects.
But, I'm going to try and not beat myself up too much. I've read on here a few times that I never have to feel like that again. I just have to make better decisions.
Thanks for checking in.
But, I'm going to try and not beat myself up too much. I've read on here a few times that I never have to feel like that again. I just have to make better decisions.
Thanks for checking in.
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Originally Posted by doggonecarl 
The memory (and misery) of day one doesn't seem sufficient to sustain sobriety. What can you add to your plan to support your decision to quit? That is, if you have a plan.
Well, I'm not sure if this would be considered a plan but I see my psychologist regularly. I exercise and try to eat well. I read and make sure I socialize (non-drinking dates) with friends. I've been considering taking a meditation class a few blocks from my home and the biggest thing that I want to do but haven't quite gotten over the intimidation factor, is AA.
Have you been to an AA meeting? What would I expect for the first time?
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Hi Berry glad you are back and sorry you had a tough day.
Day 26 for me and have had a few pangs shall we say.
Staying vigilant against my AV (that was yours making light of your last day 1 trying to trick you into thinking that it wasn't so bad) has helped me.
I am imagining it as an evil devil who will not be satisfied until it kills me so I must defend my sober choice fiercely.
I know that may sound dramatic but it works for me.
Wishing you the best.
Day 26 for me and have had a few pangs shall we say.
Staying vigilant against my AV (that was yours making light of your last day 1 trying to trick you into thinking that it wasn't so bad) has helped me.
I am imagining it as an evil devil who will not be satisfied until it kills me so I must defend my sober choice fiercely.
I know that may sound dramatic but it works for me.
Wishing you the best.
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Originally Posted by Silverback4
Hi Berry glad you are back and sorry you had a tough day.
Day 26 for me and have had a few pangs shall we say.
Staying vigilant against my AV (that was yours making light of your last day 1 trying to trick you into thinking that it wasn't so bad) has helped me.
I am imagining it as an evil devil who will not be satisfied until it kills me so I must defend my sober choice fiercely.
I know that may sound dramatic but it works for me.
Wishing you the best.
Day 26 for me and have had a few pangs shall we say.
Staying vigilant against my AV (that was yours making light of your last day 1 trying to trick you into thinking that it wasn't so bad) has helped me.
I am imagining it as an evil devil who will not be satisfied until it kills me so I must defend my sober choice fiercely.
I know that may sound dramatic but it works for me.
Wishing you the best.
I’ll try that. I’m open to anything.
Congrats on day 26. Great job!!
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Originally Posted by berryblue
What would I expect for the first time?
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(((berryblue)))
Right. Time to get serious. Yes? Your addiction will tell you every last little lie to keep dragging you back into it's clutches. You soooo almost did it by telling on it here!!!!!
Bottom line I refer to when the lying AV tries are 2 things Soberwolf recommended as the unnegotiable:
1) Drinking alcohol is off the table as an option. Not one sip. Ever.
2) Any thoughts romanticising alcohol must be quashed immediately. There is nothing positive whatsoever about it.
The rest of your plan of choice is of course personal opinion. I am not currently an AAer but I have been in the past and have a lot of respect and affection for the fellowship. I would imagine you will be welcomed very warmly and there is no expectation that you have to share or contribute if you feel uncomfortable. plus you will likely be offered phone numbers for support if you feel that this would help. Anything is worth a try yes?
Are you in a class on SR (for example the class of October 2017) or do you check in each day on the 24 hour thread? I thoroughly recommend both and also there is an absolute mass of reading to be done.
Just one other last thing. Have you read about AVRT / rational recovery? There is a secular section here which you could look in to.
I wish you well and it really is totally possible for you to make this the last time you need to feel like this. I promise you that.
Right. Time to get serious. Yes? Your addiction will tell you every last little lie to keep dragging you back into it's clutches. You soooo almost did it by telling on it here!!!!!
Bottom line I refer to when the lying AV tries are 2 things Soberwolf recommended as the unnegotiable:
1) Drinking alcohol is off the table as an option. Not one sip. Ever.
2) Any thoughts romanticising alcohol must be quashed immediately. There is nothing positive whatsoever about it.
The rest of your plan of choice is of course personal opinion. I am not currently an AAer but I have been in the past and have a lot of respect and affection for the fellowship. I would imagine you will be welcomed very warmly and there is no expectation that you have to share or contribute if you feel uncomfortable. plus you will likely be offered phone numbers for support if you feel that this would help. Anything is worth a try yes?
Are you in a class on SR (for example the class of October 2017) or do you check in each day on the 24 hour thread? I thoroughly recommend both and also there is an absolute mass of reading to be done.
Just one other last thing. Have you read about AVRT / rational recovery? There is a secular section here which you could look in to.
I wish you well and it really is totally possible for you to make this the last time you need to feel like this. I promise you that.
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Originally Posted by joandmelandhan
(((berryblue)))
Right. Time to get serious. Yes? Your addiction will tell you every last little lie to keep dragging you back into it's clutches. You soooo almost did it by telling on it here!!!!!
Bottom line I refer to when the lying AV tries are 2 things Soberwolf recommended as the unnegotiable:
1) Drinking alcohol is off the table as an option. Not one sip. Ever.
2) Any thoughts romanticising alcohol must be quashed immediately. There is nothing positive whatsoever about it.
The rest of your plan of choice is of course personal opinion. I am not currently an AAer but I have been in the past and have a lot of respect and affection for the fellowship. I would imagine you will be welcomed very warmly and there is no expectation that you have to share or contribute if you feel uncomfortable. plus you will likely be offered phone numbers for support if you feel that this would help. Anything is worth a try yes?
Are you in a class on SR (for example the class of October 2017) or do you check in each day on the 24 hour thread? I thoroughly recommend both and also there is an absolute mass of reading to be done.
Just one other last thing. Have you read about AVRT / rational recovery? There is a secular section here which you could look in to.
I wish you well and it really is totally possible for you to make this the last time you need to feel like this. I promise you that.
Right. Time to get serious. Yes? Your addiction will tell you every last little lie to keep dragging you back into it's clutches. You soooo almost did it by telling on it here!!!!!
Bottom line I refer to when the lying AV tries are 2 things Soberwolf recommended as the unnegotiable:
1) Drinking alcohol is off the table as an option. Not one sip. Ever.
2) Any thoughts romanticising alcohol must be quashed immediately. There is nothing positive whatsoever about it.
The rest of your plan of choice is of course personal opinion. I am not currently an AAer but I have been in the past and have a lot of respect and affection for the fellowship. I would imagine you will be welcomed very warmly and there is no expectation that you have to share or contribute if you feel uncomfortable. plus you will likely be offered phone numbers for support if you feel that this would help. Anything is worth a try yes?
Are you in a class on SR (for example the class of October 2017) or do you check in each day on the 24 hour thread? I thoroughly recommend both and also there is an absolute mass of reading to be done.
Just one other last thing. Have you read about AVRT / rational recovery? There is a secular section here which you could look in to.
I wish you well and it really is totally possible for you to make this the last time you need to feel like this. I promise you that.
I will check out those threads and do some suggested reading.
I've decided that the next time my AV gets loud like it did, I am going to try my first meeting. I might even go before that point so I can maybe get some numbers to get me through it.
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berry just another thing. Sometimes if it comes on strong and sudden it's useful to have a little list of things that help quickly. For example have a hot shower or bath, drink a pint of water, get out of the house (go for a drive or a walk), have a really good cry, call a friend, call your mum, come on here, eat (anything), go to bed, do a puzzle, mow the lawn, do some vigerouse housework ....... silly little things that can cut through that craving. I personally find a hot shower coupled with a bit of a cry and a cuddle work for me.
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