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Bought another bottle of extra stout this morning, it is sitting in the fridge next to his mate. I have no intentions of drinking it. What it has done is give me a visual reminder of how many times ive been pushed since the detox.
I pulled it out of the bag,put it in the fridge and thought no more of it.
My injurys are playing up pretty bad today so it might be a day to lay off the physical work a bit and catch up with a friend.
The thing pushing me to buy alcohol is a toxic relationship and
silly games. A long 6 year relationship. I'm not getting into the nitty gritty of
it but the relationship is failing and the other party isnt all that interested.
And at this stage of the game neither am I.
Just going through my head what steps to take next, i have invested
a lot into the relationship and still have feelings for the person but
there comes a point where it becomes more unpleasant than pleasant.
You only get one shot at life and you should be with a person that takes notice of you.
This is what i think when im driving to the bottle shop. This and how
someone so close to me say things and act the way they do.
I wouldnt drink the stout just to prove a point.
And i'm massive on point proving. Believe me.
Thanks for reading guys, hope alls well.
I pulled it out of the bag,put it in the fridge and thought no more of it.
My injurys are playing up pretty bad today so it might be a day to lay off the physical work a bit and catch up with a friend.
The thing pushing me to buy alcohol is a toxic relationship and
silly games. A long 6 year relationship. I'm not getting into the nitty gritty of
it but the relationship is failing and the other party isnt all that interested.
And at this stage of the game neither am I.
Just going through my head what steps to take next, i have invested
a lot into the relationship and still have feelings for the person but
there comes a point where it becomes more unpleasant than pleasant.
You only get one shot at life and you should be with a person that takes notice of you.
This is what i think when im driving to the bottle shop. This and how
someone so close to me say things and act the way they do.
I wouldnt drink the stout just to prove a point.
And i'm massive on point proving. Believe me.
Thanks for reading guys, hope alls well.
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Sorry guys, missed your posts,
Thankyou for the support i hope were all staying strong
and going in the right direction together.
Or at least trying to, even if eveything likes to try and get in the way.
haha
Thankyou for the support i hope were all staying strong
and going in the right direction together.
Or at least trying to, even if eveything likes to try and get in the way.
haha
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Thanks stronger.
buying the beer gives me a a sense of pride,also i can see everytime
i open the fridge how many times i normally would have drank.
Some people go to meetings, im stock piling stout.
My stopping drinking was from some serious health problems
starting to happen, i was severly unwell when i was drinking,i
have no interest in making myself sick.
Made a bench yesterday out of wood. Thats a table and a bench in a week.
not bad. Did the bench in a day.
Hope everyones travveling well
buying the beer gives me a a sense of pride,also i can see everytime
i open the fridge how many times i normally would have drank.
Some people go to meetings, im stock piling stout.
My stopping drinking was from some serious health problems
starting to happen, i was severly unwell when i was drinking,i
have no interest in making myself sick.
Made a bench yesterday out of wood. Thats a table and a bench in a week.
not bad. Did the bench in a day.
Hope everyones travveling well
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Might be worth adding i may have saved a ladies life yesterday
and her dog. If i was drinking it probably wouldnt have happened.
Her dog was badly attacked and she was too by a rottweiler,her
dog wasnt in a good way.
lets all hope the old lady and her dog are ok.
and her dog. If i was drinking it probably wouldnt have happened.
Her dog was badly attacked and she was too by a rottweiler,her
dog wasnt in a good way.
lets all hope the old lady and her dog are ok.
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thanks stronger,
My relationship with alcohol for me was like a romance, i had some good times
and whatever but it wants to kill me and i want to move on. I just dont have the temptation.
the wood is different to work with,and interesting. Ive always
been a steel guy and if you stuff it up you can weld over it then
grind it back again. With wood you get one go. And its unforgiving
I has certainly tested my patience. Half the problem is i am in a lot
of pain and try to "rush" things a bit when i'm sore and you just can
do that with wood. It kicks back at you.
With steel if you want to go harder/faster you just lean into the
grinder harder and wear your grinding disks down or crank the
welder up and move faster. The wood will have none of it.
It will work against you if you dont work with it,and every
piece is different.
I'm also teaching myself as i go and making my own tools so its been fun.
I found an old guy that lives up in the hills who built his own saw
mill. I bought some wood off him last weekend and intend on going for
a drive out there again this weekend. he has beautiful timber
out there.
the timber i'm using is recycled Australian hardwood. And it earns its name.
It is very hard on me and my tools but when you build something
out of it and put some oil on it ,she shines.
If photobucket wasnt playing silly buggers,id throw some photos up.
My relationship with alcohol for me was like a romance, i had some good times
and whatever but it wants to kill me and i want to move on. I just dont have the temptation.
the wood is different to work with,and interesting. Ive always
been a steel guy and if you stuff it up you can weld over it then
grind it back again. With wood you get one go. And its unforgiving
I has certainly tested my patience. Half the problem is i am in a lot
of pain and try to "rush" things a bit when i'm sore and you just can
do that with wood. It kicks back at you.
With steel if you want to go harder/faster you just lean into the
grinder harder and wear your grinding disks down or crank the
welder up and move faster. The wood will have none of it.
It will work against you if you dont work with it,and every
piece is different.
I'm also teaching myself as i go and making my own tools so its been fun.
I found an old guy that lives up in the hills who built his own saw
mill. I bought some wood off him last weekend and intend on going for
a drive out there again this weekend. he has beautiful timber
out there.
the timber i'm using is recycled Australian hardwood. And it earns its name.
It is very hard on me and my tools but when you build something
out of it and put some oil on it ,she shines.
If photobucket wasnt playing silly buggers,id throw some photos up.
congrats on 7 weeks oldmate.
I'm gonna say it - I son;t agree with it but I can just about understand the Chuck Norris approach where someone might keep one bottle as a test of strength...but noone stockpiles beer unless they're gonna drink it eventually.
I think maybe your inner addict is as crafty as mine was?
I'm gonna say it - I son;t agree with it but I can just about understand the Chuck Norris approach where someone might keep one bottle as a test of strength...but noone stockpiles beer unless they're gonna drink it eventually.
I think maybe your inner addict is as crafty as mine was?
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thanks dee,
you might be right. Im trying to keep my inner addict at bay building
things but my body limits me. i wouldnt be surprised if i could outcraft
myself.
Almost bought a fourth bottle of stout today, pushed again.
didnt get the stout,dont feel the need to do it anymore,
maybe come christmas time when the shops are closed i can flog it for a profit
to a desperate friend.
Cant whinge about being pushed to doing it either as i let it keep happening.
The chair i made is finished. just finished sanding and linseed oiling.
hope everyones ok.
you might be right. Im trying to keep my inner addict at bay building
things but my body limits me. i wouldnt be surprised if i could outcraft
myself.
Almost bought a fourth bottle of stout today, pushed again.
didnt get the stout,dont feel the need to do it anymore,
maybe come christmas time when the shops are closed i can flog it for a profit
to a desperate friend.
Cant whinge about being pushed to doing it either as i let it keep happening.
The chair i made is finished. just finished sanding and linseed oiling.
hope everyones ok.
I've just now read your thread with earnest. With the first stout I thought uh oh... same with the subsequent additons.. Dee called it. Sorry you fell. Brush yourself off and start over. And don't use alcohol as your sense of pride and strength. That comes from within. Your life/story/thread can have a happy ending .
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Thanks for the words guys.
I dont want to waste anymore of anyones time, just goes to show though,
even when you think you have control, you quite possibly may not have it.
hasnt taken long to get sick either. Back to diarrhea and vomiting.
I was tempted to write of this thread and never come back,as im
sure many other people do but maybe it will help someone.
Lost my license as well on tuesday.
Hope everyones doing well.
I dont want to waste anymore of anyones time, just goes to show though,
even when you think you have control, you quite possibly may not have it.
hasnt taken long to get sick either. Back to diarrhea and vomiting.
I was tempted to write of this thread and never come back,as im
sure many other people do but maybe it will help someone.
Lost my license as well on tuesday.
Hope everyones doing well.
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