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Old 09-18-2017, 03:47 AM
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Dangit!!!!!!

Was doing so well, and completely fell this weekend!! Back on day 1. Gotta stop this merry go round. Useless. I'm so angry at myself.
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Old 09-18-2017, 03:52 AM
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Done,

Sorry to hear it. The good news is that you and I can do this. It might take a fall or (in my case) a hundred falls, but as long as we keep going, we'll get there eventually. Please don't be angry with yourself. Have some compassion for yourself. You know that the prize is out there - a sober life free from the confines of addiction. Let's go get it!

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Old 09-18-2017, 03:53 AM
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Beating yourself up is useless.
Put that energy into working out what you need to change Done.

what bought you undone on the weekend?

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Old 09-18-2017, 04:01 AM
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Social surroundings. Actually, only one thing brought me undone. Me. Don't recall what I was thinking at the time when I had my first. Just somehow said "I can handle this and be normal". Well I can't. 3 days. What a waste.
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Old 09-18-2017, 04:10 AM
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I blundered about for a long time trying to stay sober in a drinkers life, with no real plan & a fear of change .

I had to change my social life for a while.
Too many drinkers and too many drinking opportunities in my old life.

d'ya reckon you're willing to do that now Done?

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Old 09-18-2017, 04:13 AM
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Done,

Sorry to hear it. The good news is that you and I can do this. It might take a fall or (in my case) a hundred falls, but as long as we keep going, we'll get there eventually. Please don't be angry with yourself. Have some compassion for yourself. You know that the prize is out there - a sober life free from the confines of addiction. Let's go get it!

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I don't allow myself the freedom to take abunch of falls. I say to myself and everyone else that "I do not drink alcohol ". I believe it and I act it.
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Old 09-18-2017, 04:19 AM
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I don't allow myself the freedom to take abunch of falls. I say to myself and everyone else that "I do not drink alcohol ". I believe it and I act it.
I also say to myself that I'm allergic to alcohol which is the truth.
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Old 09-18-2017, 04:37 AM
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I blundered about for a long time trying to stay sober in a drinkers life, with no real plan & a fear of change .

I had to change my social life for a while.
Too many drinkers and too many drinking opportunities in my old life.

d'ya reckon you're willing to do that now Done?

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Yeah, I don't have an issue with changing my social surroundings and avoiding hanging out with people who are drinking. I made the mistake of thinking I was stronger this weekend and fell. So frustrating. I have been in social settings and had no problem saying no before. Ugh. So annoyed.
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Old 09-18-2017, 04:56 AM
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Actually, only one thing brought me undone. Me. Don't recall what I was thinking at the time when I had my first. Just somehow said "I can handle this and be normal".
This from one of your first posts:

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I am on day 2 AGAIN. My hardest part comes at day 5, it's when I think I'm fine and can easily control my drinking.
There's a pattern to your relapses. Despite your decision to get sober, you decide to drink. So you rationalize it. Proving to yourself that CAN'T control it isn't keeping you sober.

Drinking has to come off the table as an option. Non-negotiable. Any thoughts of drinking is the insanity of alcoholism. You can't reason with it.
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Old 09-18-2017, 05:12 AM
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Completely agree, rationalizing it never works. I need to understand AVRT more. Because I need to add to my tool belt when those times the AV comes on strong.
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