Decided stop drinking.
 

I decided to stop drinking. I've always used it to self medicate. So scared to start feeling feelings.

Hi Jen - yeah it can feel scary but there's a lot of support here. Post as often as you need to, and read around - see how other people are handling it :)

You'll see its not that scary once you get a few days in :)

Glad to have you with us :)

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You've made a great decision. Be prepared for what addiction will throw at you like cravings and guilt and shame. If you dont experience those things, you are ahead of the curve.

Welcome to SR, Jen👋. I've only recently stopped drinking as well, but I'm finding this site really helpful. Good luck😀

Hi Jen,

It's very normal to be scared at this point. But, you will be able to deal with the feelings and to get through that. I hope you keep reading and posting.

Welcome Jen!
That is outstanding you have decided to quit...that is the first step on a journey that will make you look at the world in a different light.
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Welcome Jen. Check out the September thread, all folks quitting this month. You'll fit right in!

Welcome to the family. :hug: You'll find lots of support and encouragement here. :)

Being scared won't kill you or make you sick, but you know what will...

Good for you and good luck!

Relative newcomer myself and I agree it is scary dealing with all those emotions you buried underneath the drink. What i'm finding now though is the good emotions are also coming through too. The joy of waking up mornings looking forward to the day instead of trying to get through it as quick as I could because I felt so rough, the joy of actually being present in my life and living it (because I really wasn't before)
Stick with it, it's true what other people say, it really is much better on the other side.

Thank you
 

Thank you for all your responses. Today I need to Not drink and work on my nutrition. I have no appetite. I'm making small goals for myself to complete hoping it will give me a sense of satisfaction. My biggest battle will be rebuilding my self esteem. Mybdaughter is 26 and she told me she wants her mom back. I had ask her what she was like. Because I don't remember her anymore.

Hi Jen66, welcome to the forum you have made a very good decision . As the guys above said there is lots of support here.

I have two days sober. I am realizing how much of my life involved alcohol. My yoga class is in a rented space in a brewery tasting room. Yoga n Brew. Kayaking and wine. A fun bike ride ends up at a bar. Even my runs I'd veere off the trail to a local bar. I always handled in public but no one knew after all this I'd go home with an 18 pack and some wine.

I was the same - one or none at events or work functions. One-teen, or more, picked up on the way home.

Welcome Jen66 .

It was a bit of a shocker for me too ,....just how deeply I had woven alcohol into practically every healthy activity . There's always the risk of injury ,....and then I was just left with the alcohol .

Congrats on making such a life changing experience .

Well done on the action Jen. Totally get your point regarding your daughter wanting her mum/mom back.

The good news is is that through sobriety we can all be the very best versions of ourselves, better and more connected with life than we ever may have been before alcohol took its grip.
Wishing you well