Stronger2017
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I have 10 days. No big drinking triggers this week, though I do feel uncomfortable seeing people drinking as I'm walking home from work and the same goes for the discarded cans of alcohol left on the street (usually the following morning). This happened last time I quit and I don't want to become obsessed with it this time round. Any thoughts? I'll mention this to my therapist too.
I obssessed about drink, then about not drinking...eventually I stopped obsessing - I literally do not notice drinkers any more than other people now.
If you're like me you drank and obsessed for years...10 days is great but it's gonna take a little longer, I think
You'll get there Stronger.
If you're like me you drank and obsessed for years...10 days is great but it's gonna take a little longer, I think
You'll get there Stronger.
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I have two weeks. Today had been going well but during the afternoon I began to feel sad about some personal problems I'm dealing with. You think you're doing so well and then the heavy feelings hit you and they hurt.
I'm now sorting out my wardrobe to take my mind off things😁.
I'm now sorting out my wardrobe to take my mind off things😁.
Stronger,
My first sponsor said, "Feel the ***t out of those feelings!" Cleaning is a great way to let your mind sort of sit through those things without obsessing. And also you get to go back and look at your handiwork and feel pleased about it. Win win!
I hear stuff is gonna hurt. And it also seems from what I hear that being and staying sober can be helpful in letting stuff go. Think I'll try that.
O
My first sponsor said, "Feel the ***t out of those feelings!" Cleaning is a great way to let your mind sort of sit through those things without obsessing. And also you get to go back and look at your handiwork and feel pleased about it. Win win!
I hear stuff is gonna hurt. And it also seems from what I hear that being and staying sober can be helpful in letting stuff go. Think I'll try that.
O
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Stronger,
My first sponsor said, "Feel the ***t out of those feelings!" Cleaning is a great way to let your mind sort of sit through those things without obsessing. And also you get to go back and look at your handiwork and feel pleased about it. Win win!
I hear stuff is gonna hurt. And it also seems from what I hear that being and staying sober can be helpful in letting stuff go. Think I'll try that.
O
My first sponsor said, "Feel the ***t out of those feelings!" Cleaning is a great way to let your mind sort of sit through those things without obsessing. And also you get to go back and look at your handiwork and feel pleased about it. Win win!
I hear stuff is gonna hurt. And it also seems from what I hear that being and staying sober can be helpful in letting stuff go. Think I'll try that.
O
Oh, and I am very pleased with my wardrobe now😁
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Now on 15 days. Today was bit of a strange one. I thought the therapy would be good but I came out feeling unsatisfied. There was also a mixup with the payment and then on the way home I couldn't help thinking about my posting on SR. Am I posting too little? Too much? In the right place? About the right things? Stuff like that. Such a mind **** all of it.
I've not got much of a desire to drink right now but it's obvious to me something isn't right. My next appointment is on Monday morning. I'll try to think hard about my situation in the meantime.
I've not got much of a desire to drink right now but it's obvious to me something isn't right. My next appointment is on Monday morning. I'll try to think hard about my situation in the meantime.
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Thanks Dee. I've actually been thinking about that a bit since my last post. There's a few different issues going on and my thinking was getting a little screwed. I guess I need to back off for a few days and let things come to me a little. It's actually decent timing as I have a few days off coming up😀. I think I'll also mothball this thread (for the time being at least) as it seems to have run its course.
Hey Stronger, it seems you are living up to your name. Still struggling, I know, but facing things. And that's good.
I agree with you and Dee that there is such a thing as overthinking - I'm guilty of it myself. Have you tried meditating just for a few minutes every day? I generally don't get any flashes of inspiration during this, but it does seem to be training my brain to let some thoughts just "be" which releases me from some of that compulsive thinking. I hope that makes sense.
From my vantage point, you've only just begun your story and there is a long and interesting course ahead. So don't think you "should" or "ought to" put the thread away. I like checking in to see how you're getting along. And I'm quite certain I'm not the only one.
Please try not to worry about whether you're posting too much too little too honest too emotionally too distant or any of those other too's. I do that sometimes and it's really less than helpful. If no one wants to read my stuff, it's pretty easy. They can just ignore it. This perspective helps me to (mostly) avoid the trap of writing so you will like me rather than just writing what I think and feel.
If it's the best thing for you, I support that too. If that matters at all.
O
I agree with you and Dee that there is such a thing as overthinking - I'm guilty of it myself. Have you tried meditating just for a few minutes every day? I generally don't get any flashes of inspiration during this, but it does seem to be training my brain to let some thoughts just "be" which releases me from some of that compulsive thinking. I hope that makes sense.
From my vantage point, you've only just begun your story and there is a long and interesting course ahead. So don't think you "should" or "ought to" put the thread away. I like checking in to see how you're getting along. And I'm quite certain I'm not the only one.
Please try not to worry about whether you're posting too much too little too honest too emotionally too distant or any of those other too's. I do that sometimes and it's really less than helpful. If no one wants to read my stuff, it's pretty easy. They can just ignore it. This perspective helps me to (mostly) avoid the trap of writing so you will like me rather than just writing what I think and feel.
If it's the best thing for you, I support that too. If that matters at all.
O
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Thanks for the kind and detailed reply O. The meditation is a really good idea. I've played around with it in the past but I will give it a go again in the next few days. Also, I'm going to try to let go a little more. I do have some family stuff that sort of overwhelmed me yesterday but it will get sorted, just maybe not immediately. I can wait. Actually, right now I want to enjoy the pleasure of being sober for a bit. Thanks again for looking out for me. It's very much appreciated🙂.
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