ultrasoberdude

You know how humbling being able to get a car is, its huge having a car. I was on foot for over 5 years, and now I have a car. Its like at 6 months sober I am worried about getting drunk and DUI or worse. I am serious I talk to my sponsor about it daily.

He always tells me, you bought it its yours take care of it, if something happens no matter what don't get behind the wheel call me, and will talk.

I know its pretty mundane about vehicle ownership, but I don't know if I should be afraid or happy at times. I love the thing, and its nice a 2 door sport coupe, paid for in cash. I actually earned this on my own, saved money on my own, and bought it out right. BUT do I deserve this, or should I have it at this time, I don't know..... I don't know that six months of sobriety is deserving of a car.

Its just weird, like I go from buses and bumming rides to having a ride, and my alkie mind thinks immediately of all the ways a drunk and get in trouble with this machine, or hurt someone, or do something stupid. I know I haven't drank for six months but still there is a part of me that still wants to drink ( need to talk to the sponsor about this tonight) but just my fear.

CreativeThinker

6 months is great! By now you should be feeling pretty good...but I know how it feels when you're not 100% convinced that you never want to drink again. Don't make the same mistake that I made (years ago) and start drinking again, only to deal with many negative consequences: DUI's, loss of jobs, loss of relationships ....and most importantly...loss of self respect.

Try seeing your new car as a reminder of how successful your life can be without alcohol in it.

Stick with it and continue to reach out for support from your sponsor. You'll be glad you did!

Joeshope54

Congrats, it's amazing how life can improve when we get rid of what holds us back.

Dee74

Congrats on your car

As for deserving...you saved your money and you bought a car - I wouldn't overthink it - just be sober, enjoy - don't give any oxygen to self doubt

D

nez

Cool beans ultrasoberdude! Let the car be a great gratitude reminder of the gift of sobriety.

DontRemember

I waited an extra month after my 1st DUI to get my license back. This 2nd time(6yrs after getting it back the first time) I waited three months. Like you, I didn't 'trust myself' fully. I had employees driving me every where,in my new truck(wrecked the old one and went to jail) and I got to know my uber drivers to the point that I have 7 on call,but I didn't drink. I still use them for clients/guests. It's a really weird feeling/thought that my careless ass can just drive around anywhere I want now. Congrats on your new ride! Take care of it and yourself.

Ariesagain

Let it be your pride and joy and your motivation, not a guilt machine, yes?

Turn up the music and drive!

least

If you put your effort into staying sober, you shouldn't have any worries. Enjoy your car and your six months sober!

butcher70

Congratulations on being 6 months sober man! You absolutely deserve a car! Hope you like it and it runs like a top.

sweetichick

Just go out and enjoy yourself. Nothing to be scared of. You are over thinking this.

hpdw

Congratulations on your 6 months sober and you should be proud of saving and buying your own car ,sounds a nice set of wheels too , what kind is it ? We have a family car a Mazda 3 but I would love to buy a car just like you did to call my own and add one of those big fat exhausts and ultra low profile red alloy wheels .

I agree with the above poster who asks you not to overthink this . Be gentle with your self and speak with someone you trust

Berrybean

Congrats on the new car.

You know - one of the things I really have learned about through sobriety and AA is Grace. Undeserved love. It is mine to enjoy. It is also mine to pass on. Perhaps, once you get confident behind the wheel, you can use it to do a little unofficial service by giving people rides to meetings who otherwise wouldn't manage to get to one?

Enjoy yourself - and drive safe.

BB

August252015

I completely relate!!! I was car-less for over three years (my parents took my car the night I drove home and they took me to the hospital...and I blew a 0.42). My dad was on the lease (by that point it was the only way I could get a car, credit-wise) so, game over for the next few years.

Sparing you the in between, I finally got my dad's car at right 6 mo sober. They had let me use their cars for a few months and it WAS scary at first. I was really REALLY sick when I quit, so my spatial relationships and depth perceptions took awhile to recalibrate. Fortunately, they did.

It's a good but old car and we hope it has another year, and it is something I appreciate every single time I walk to get into it.

Happy for you - and be so glad knowing that no one will pull you over for anything related to drinking!!

PurpleKnight

I think it's important that after all the beating up of ourselves we do when we initially get Sober, that we start to enjoy and be proud of our Sobriety, and the fruits of that major change we made, YOU did that and made it happen.

Being able to saving money and buy nice things, not having to worry about alcohol ruining things again is something to enjoy!!

6 Months is fantastic!!

SimplyFree

Great freedom, great responsibility. That being said, great sound systems are awesome too!! Enjoy!