I used to post as Lorelei
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I used to post as Lorelei
Hi everyone. I used to be a very regular poster then circumstances took me from the forums.
I had 3 years of sobriety and recently have slipped back to drinking. All i want to do right now is to curl up and die. I know i did good... but now... its back to square one.
This whole thing is killing me.
I had 3 years of sobriety and recently have slipped back to drinking. All i want to do right now is to curl up and die. I know i did good... but now... its back to square one.
This whole thing is killing me.
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Hi welcome back. I remember you it's great to have you back. I can relate as also had 3 years then picked up again last year. It's got worse over year and I'm only on day 4 now.
At least you've come back soon which is great. You still have all that sober time and the lessons and skills you learned. We just have to apply them again. You can do this.
At least you've come back soon which is great. You still have all that sober time and the lessons and skills you learned. We just have to apply them again. You can do this.
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I remember you too!!
I have no idea why i thought it would be a good idea to drink again... maybe i thought i was okay... fixed?! All i know is after all that hard work I am back again. Its like a bad dream on repeat...
I have no idea why i thought it would be a good idea to drink again... maybe i thought i was okay... fixed?! All i know is after all that hard work I am back again. Its like a bad dream on repeat...
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I know what you mean. I don't really know why I picked up either other than I took my eyes off the ball. I wasn't craving hadn't done in months. Just wanted to try it. Crazy hey. Left it for a month then did it again. Now I'm every night and physically craving and mentally obsessing. It can't go on.
We are in the best place here. Do you have other support?what did you use last time to get and stay sober?
We are in the best place here. Do you have other support?what did you use last time to get and stay sober?
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Honestly. I hit rock bottom endedup in hospital and realised after being assessed if it happened again I'd probably die. So i literally decided no more... the first yr was hard but worth it. The bext 2 were easier with therapy etc. My friends and family supported me. Nothing changed, except me...Guess i became too comfortable.
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Originally Posted by SoberedupGirl 
Honestly. I hit rock bottom endedup in hospital and realised after being assessed if it happened again I'd probably die. So i literally decided no more... the first yr was hard but worth it. The bext 2 were easier with therapy etc. My friends and family supported me. Nothing changed, except me...Guess i became too comfortable.
Time to make a new plan I suppose. What about meetings? Have you checked out what's happening in your area?
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Welcome back 
Yeah there's nothing different back there - getting sober and staying sober is the only way my life works.
You've done it once - you can do it again..Start thinking about a plan maybe?
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...very-plan.html
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Yeah there's nothing different back there - getting sober and staying sober is the only way my life works.
You've done it once - you can do it again..Start thinking about a plan maybe?
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...very-plan.html
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Originally Posted by SoberedupGirl
Hi everyone. I used to be a very regular poster then circumstances took me from the forums.
I had 3 years of sobriety and recently have slipped back to drinking. All i want to do right now is to curl up and die. I know i did good... but now... its back to square one.
This whole thing is killing me.
I had 3 years of sobriety and recently have slipped back to drinking. All i want to do right now is to curl up and die. I know i did good... but now... its back to square one.
This whole thing is killing me.
You have PROVEN you are capable of doing this and don't let your own mind convince you otherwise!
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Originally Posted by SoberedupGirl
Hi everyone. I used to be a very regular poster then circumstances took me from the forums.
I had 3 years of sobriety and recently have slipped back to drinking. All i want to do right now is to curl up and die. I know i did good... but now... its back to square one.
This whole thing is killing me.
I had 3 years of sobriety and recently have slipped back to drinking. All i want to do right now is to curl up and die. I know i did good... but now... its back to square one.
This whole thing is killing me.
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Originally Posted by SoberedupGirl
Honestly. I hit rock bottom endedup in hospital and realised after being assessed if it happened again I'd probably die. So i literally decided no more... the first yr was hard but worth it. The bext 2 were easier with therapy etc. My friends and family supported me. Nothing changed, except me...Guess i became too comfortable.
Sorry to hear you ended up in hospital but well done on your 3 years. You still have that and will have it again. Use whatever you need to -what you know works and more. It's good you have support both in real life on on here too. How are you feeling today? Maybe join the September class.
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