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DontRemember 08-29-2017 05:02 PM

Memories of before.
 
I've been having a lot of thoughts the past couple of weeks to "before" I picked up. I was young,happy,LIVING! Then I think back to when I 'started', I see dark sadness. A thunderstorm rolling in, if you will. Progress maybe? I'm a few days past 9 months sober,had a breakup and life is 'good?'. I just still have the feeling of waiting for the other shoe to drop(I'm also co-dependant apparently..yes!) . It's strange and almost like I still don't trust myself anymore? I'm looking at that as a good thing for now,but I just don't trust myself yet.. I know; time and working my plan are the thing to do,but just a weird feeling...Anyways...Hope everyone is well!

biminiblue 08-29-2017 05:26 PM

Good thing about weird thoughts is that they always pass.

Hang on. :) We get it!

DontRemember 08-29-2017 05:34 PM


Originally Posted by biminiblue (Post 6590217)
Good thing about weird thoughts is that they always pass.

Hang on. :) We get it!

Thanks! Yea.. I've "tried" enough and feel very solid with my recovery plan. It's just thoughts of the past that my drunk/clouded mind didn't want to acknowledge and I do know that now. Thank God,or whatever you want to say, for support! It really is mandatory in dealing with this. :thanks

biminiblue 08-29-2017 05:44 PM

One of the good things about sustained abstinence is being able to make some sense of the past and put things in perspective; make peace with them. I didn't start drinking in a vacuum, and I didn't keep drinking in one, either. There is a lot to unravel - and being in my right mind is useful for that.

PhoenixJ 08-29-2017 10:36 PM

counseling- and a psychologist- doing CBT stuff helps.


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