4 months sober today - aunt has stage 4 lung cancer
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4 months sober today - aunt has stage 4 lung cancer
I'm at a loss. My aunt has been going back and forth between doctors and hospitals for the past month. We just found out that she has stage four lung cancer that is not curable. It can be treated to give her some type of quality of life - but aside from that.. her days are numbered.
I can't believe this is happening. When I found out yesterday - it felt like my world stopped. The only thing to signify the passage of time were the sun beams dancing about in my living room as the sun set. Instinct in a moment like this is to get a drink, but I didn't. When my BF came home - he even thought he might find me with a drink in my hand. It doesn't make it better and it doesn't change the outcome. I don't want to forget. I want to be present and remember the here and now because who knows what we'll have in the future.
Sigh. It's always something.
I can't believe this is happening. When I found out yesterday - it felt like my world stopped. The only thing to signify the passage of time were the sun beams dancing about in my living room as the sun set. Instinct in a moment like this is to get a drink, but I didn't. When my BF came home - he even thought he might find me with a drink in my hand. It doesn't make it better and it doesn't change the outcome. I don't want to forget. I want to be present and remember the here and now because who knows what we'll have in the future.
Sigh. It's always something.
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Originally Posted by Nikkabean326 
I'm at a loss. My aunt has been going back and forth between doctors and hospitals for the past month. We just found out that she has stage four lung cancer that is not curable. It can be treated to give her some type of quality of life - but aside from that.. her days are numbered.
I can't believe this is happening. When I found out yesterday - it felt like my world stopped. The only thing to signify the passage of time were the sun beams dancing about in my living room as the sun set. Instinct in a moment like this is to get a drink, but I didn't. When my BF came home - he even thought he might find me with a drink in my hand. It doesn't make it better and it doesn't change the outcome. I don't want to forget. I want to be present and remember the here and now because who knows what we'll have in the future.
Sigh. It's always something.
I can't believe this is happening. When I found out yesterday - it felt like my world stopped. The only thing to signify the passage of time were the sun beams dancing about in my living room as the sun set. Instinct in a moment like this is to get a drink, but I didn't. When my BF came home - he even thought he might find me with a drink in my hand. It doesn't make it better and it doesn't change the outcome. I don't want to forget. I want to be present and remember the here and now because who knows what we'll have in the future.
Sigh. It's always something.
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I'm sorry for your news Nikabean. Prayers for you and all your family.
When one of my friends was diagnosed with cancer, I was glad I could be sober for him. We connected a lot in those last few months.
When one of my friends was diagnosed with cancer, I was glad I could be sober for him. We connected a lot in those last few months.
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I am sorry to hear of this news. It is devastating.
When my sister was diagnosed with stage 4 peritoneal cancer, my whole world became unhinged.
The one thing that is helpful with all of this is to stay present for your aunt. That is the one and only thing that will make this easier for you, her and the family. That being said, it is easier to say than done.
I wish for you comfort and love as you walk through this. We are here for you.
Sending love and light.
When my sister was diagnosed with stage 4 peritoneal cancer, my whole world became unhinged.
The one thing that is helpful with all of this is to stay present for your aunt. That is the one and only thing that will make this easier for you, her and the family. That being said, it is easier to say than done.
I wish for you comfort and love as you walk through this. We are here for you.
Sending love and light.
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