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Old 08-19-2017, 02:42 PM   #1 (permalink)
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Lost my sweet dog :(


The pain is unbearable. I can't talk about her or even think about her, without getting choked up. I look like I've cried a river. I've had a constant headache for 5 days and I am surrounded by people drinking and being merry right now and I just want to scream.

I'm going through every stage of grief, right now the what ifs, trying to figure out if I could have done something differently. We put her down, vet said it was time. God I want her back.
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Old 08-19-2017, 02:50 PM   #2 (permalink)
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Oh Jessie. That's hard. I'm so sorry for your loss. They are such babies to us, and real friends.

Try to remember that it is completely natural that you would mourn your beautiful dog's passing. Could you remove yourself from the festivities and go and rest and be alone with your thoughts and memories? Somewhere that you can get a hug rather than be surrounded by people who are drunk and partying and emotionally unavailable?

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Old 08-19-2017, 02:57 PM   #3 (permalink)
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I'm so sorry you lost your furry friend. I went through it with my first dog and had to grieve for a year before I got Otto.

I still miss Blitz seven years later.

Try to get away from the partying drinkers, it would also be a good time to go to a meeting.
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Old 08-19-2017, 02:59 PM   #4 (permalink)
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Sorry for your loss. I know well your pain, as I've lost a number of beloved fur babies and am watching my old girl nearing her end as her health is failing. It's tough, never gets easy. But I'd endure twice as much pain at their going rather than be denied the love and companionship my dogs gave me.
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Old 08-19-2017, 03:55 PM   #5 (permalink)
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Thanks guys, I did get away for a bit.
I put flowers on her grave and I talk to her every day. I hope this gets easier, but I don't ever remember it being so hard, and I've lost a few over the years.

My thoughts aren't rational at times, I know. I spent 2 days completely distraught at the thought of her heart restarting in that sealed box we put her in, and her thinking I did that to her. My husband finally told me that rigamortis (sp?) had set in before we buried her. That helped put that thought to rest, but is it possible an animal could come back after being buried??

Then I found her favorite blanket in the laundry room last night, and realized I didn't bury her with it. She had thrown up on it and it was getting washed.
I keep going over in my head everything that happened that day.
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Old 08-19-2017, 03:59 PM   #6 (permalink)
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I have lost many pets that I loved so very much. I hurt so bad for weeks. It felt like someone had 'kicked me in the stomach'.
The more you loved...the more it hurts. So, be assured that you have given all your love to your pet.
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Old 08-19-2017, 04:06 PM   #7 (permalink)
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(((Jessie))) So sorry to hear about your pup.....she was given a wonderful life thanks to you
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Old 08-19-2017, 04:11 PM   #8 (permalink)
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Awwww I'm so sorry!! I know that pain and it downright HURTS!

SUPER proud of you for staying sober and I'm sending you a MASSIVE virtual hug!
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Old 08-19-2017, 04:14 PM   #9 (permalink)
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I'm so sorry for your loss. I know the pain you're going through and wish I could do or say something to make it better. Losing a beloved pet is agony but as someone else said, the joy and love they give us far outweighs the pain of their passing. My thoughts are with you.
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Old 08-19-2017, 04:21 PM   #10 (permalink)
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(((jessie))). so very sorry for your loss. Our pets are family members and it hurts so so so much when we say good-bye, even when it's 'time'.
Chloe is right, the depth of your grief is a measure of your love. You loved well.
Please be kind to yourself and know you did everything you could for your baby.
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Old 08-19-2017, 04:22 PM   #11 (permalink)
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Jessie, I am so sorry
I too understand the pain of losing a furbaby, so early in recovery for me, it was terribly hard and I was also alone, so I am sending you heart hugs.
They are family and children to us. I hope the pain eases soon, and you can focus on all the happy memories with her.
I know it got better with time for me. I just recalled happier memories that made me smile when I thought of his passing.
It's hard. We're all here for you.
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Old 08-19-2017, 04:32 PM   #12 (permalink)
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I'm so sorry for the loss of your beloved dog. I've gone thru it so many times, but would always go thru the grief in order to have had their love and company.
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Old 08-19-2017, 04:45 PM   #13 (permalink)
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aw hon i'm so sorry. i've been there. i wondered if there was more that i could do to save our little Jackie. we had him for 13 1/2 years. we lost him two weeks before christmas 2015. i still get choked up over it sometimes. we love our fur babies, and losing them is the toughest part to having them. but, the love they give us is worth every bit of the pain of their passing. wishing you peace...

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Sending love to you, Jessie. Most of us have been there, and will be again. I guess the grief is the price we pay for love. We'll do it again & again.

It will get easier - your feelings are raw right now. Try to think that she would never have wanted to bring you pain. I feel that you will see her again - I think mine are all waiting for me, too.
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Jessie, I am so very sorry for the loss of your beloved dog.
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(((Jessie)))

I think one of the bravest, yet saddest, things a pet owner can do is end their suffering.

You did the right thing - let the memories of your long life together comfort you.



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PRAYERS. Do not drink, let the emotions flow.
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((Jessie)) I'm so sorry you lost your sweet dog. We have many animal lovers here that can relate to your post. I'm one of them... the pain does feel unbearable right now. Try and focus on the love and positive memories. Those will remain with you forever. Your gift to hold in your heart and get you through the tough times.

Please know you did the right thing. Sending you my deepest sympathies and healing prayers.
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So sorry for the loss of your dog jessie. Keeping you in my thoughts & prayers.
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