Every once in a while...
 

...I'm suddenly struck by a strange, calming sense of "okay-ness." Not very often, since I am, by nature, a worrier, a catastrophizer, a self-beater-upper, always thinking of things I should be doing that I'm not, and things I'm doing that I shouldn't; that's my natural state.

But occasionally, totally unexpectedly, I feel...good, content, for absolutely no discernible reason. It just happened this morning, a total shift in mood and perception. When I paid attention to my thoughts, I realized I was feeling good about very simple things: it's Saturday and I can do as I please; I have people in my life who love me; I have a job that covers my expenses, and a house that keeps me protected and comfortable; I don't drink anymore...I didn't win a lottery, or get unexpected good news, or meet a new romantic interest...just suddenly felt okay with myself and my life.

I think I might be feeling that Gratitude thing I keep reading about here!

I really like it; it's very peaceful...and I think I might benefit from seeking it out a bit more actively, instead of waiting for it to suddenly come over me, every once in a while. This feels really nice!

I love this place,
Arp

Beautiful :grouphug:

Love it Arp! ❤❤❤

I love serenity. For me, I think it is a direct by product of gratitude and acceptance. Serenity is not the absence of storms, it is peace in the midst of storms. It is knowing that things will be alright...even when they are not alright.

Couldn't have said it better myself! I'm a worrier by nature too and I totally relate to the feeling of okayness and inner calm, it's a fantastic feeling :)

It's wild when serenity strikes. I haven't had reliable internet access for a long time, but logging in and seeing this stuff...

Yeah. It makes me understand why even the darkest moments, there's someone who can feel for us.

Thanks for this, Arpeggioh.

Thats great stuff Arp - who knew what we'd let in once we stopped drinking?
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