123
 

Days

I'm so down it's untrue,just unbearable at moment

What's bringing you down?

You have a great high score going with 123.

I'm now dealing with the very things that started me drinking ..just dragging me down that's all

I've seen the doc and getting some help - I cannot go back to that way of life again , I have to sort it out

Just breaking my heart all this , feel I'll never smile again :-(

sure you'll smile again- head down to the recovery follies sub forum for a while. you'll be sure to smile!

the great thing is ya dont have to sort it out on your own- you have a forum of awesomeness here to give ya suggestions and advise.


it sucks, but the fact is getting sober requires some trudging some days. theres gonna be days with nasty feeling and emotions( which sometimes them feelings are true).
but it DOES get better.
"it" being you.

Aww. I got like that at about six months in. I read a really good article on PAWs . I t might be worth a read through.

For me a big turning point was getting a sponsor so that I could work through all 'that stuff' in a supported and structured way.
https://digital-dharma.net/post-acut...r-immediately/

Hope you feel better soon. Keep reading and posting.

B B

Well good for you that you know alcohol is not going to help.

Obviously I don't know what led you to the bottle in the first place but if you blotted stuff out that you are now dealing with I can imagine dealing with it all now is quite tough. However, once you've dealt with it all, and you say you are getting help with that, then happy days are ahead. Short term pain for long term gain. You can deal with the baggage.

Sending you support rainy. This is why it's so damned important to keep going because if we don't the issues just never get addressed. You're at the cutting edge now. You're doing it! Living! Life on life's terms and yes sometimes it hurts big time. Take care mate xxx

PS: tomsteve......forum of awesomeness!!!!!! Love it!!!!!

I'm glad you saw the Doc :)

Rainy, this is not the best things are gonna get - you will experience joy, laughter and good times again.

For some of us, that takes a little time - I'd dug a deep hole...I had many things to face...I was convinced my life would be endless gray and I'd never find joy again - but I did.

Have faith. Me and the others here have no reason to lie to you :)

Keep climbing up - you'll feel the sun again - you can do this :)

D

Thanks everyone - feel a bit brighter this morning as managed to get some sleep :-)

Oh if I could turn back time !!!

Will get there ..and 123 days is pretty amazing ..124 now!:tyou

Way to go Rainy! Keep up the good work.

124 days is amazingly fab ☺Stick with it hun 😷

Hi Rainy, glad you're feeling a bit brighter. I've been dealing with what I call my 'wreckage field' created by drinking. It's certainly been daunting at times and I dearly wish I could've turned the clock back, but short of a time machine....

What I try to focus on, is that my future self will never have to wish to turn the clock back to now, because I'm busy dealing with issues and improving my life as best I can. So I focus on what can I do today and the immediate future, to improve the life of my future self in the long term. Top of that list is don't drink, or I'll be stopping the abstinence clock now, and my future self will suffer and wish she could turn the clock back to now.